~~art. beauty. other people's fics. *deep sigh*

oh. my. god.
just when i thought nothing is going to bring me to my knees that way again. it happens again. and again. and again. i'm-- apparently-- light as a will-o-the-wisp, else these writers are the most amazing gorgeous talented people i've ever had the amazing pleasure of reading. i read published stuff. i do. and it doesn't do this to me. it doesn't! most of it doesn't. amalin and penelope_z and pingviini and skysorceress and ishuca... and...and... (and of course vanityfair who well-- what can i say? her harry and draco are the Queen's Own-- whatever that means, don't ask me-- though i think `monsoon season' can pass as some sort of erm... "exhibit". ahem.) and... well..... so many of you-- you all know who you are because i squee about you all the time, y'all are prolly sick of it, heh. anyway-- all pack more emotional resonance and power and vivid feeling in their pinky finger than say, jk rowling has stored away in her whole entire body. you are goddesses, i mean it.

now. today it was ``falling", by pingviini, a response to the seasonal challenge on `armchair slash'. i haven't read any of the others yet. i can't. i can barely think, still. i'm still buzzing. like a shot of straight ultra-concentrated coffee with brandy and chocolate and some sort of other drug mixed in for good measure. she has brought together every single theme-- about losing, and finding, and yearning, and loving-- and fall-- and colors-- and hope-- and just-- made a completely tight, shining, drop-dead gorgeous story from it. i can't even wibble and feel bad about my own fic (for the challenge) not being worthy. it is so good all i can do is gape, and swallow my tongue, and glow.

there is absolutely nothing else to compare with art. really good music does this to me, too. like, hearing mozart and chopin and tchaikovsky and bach. this-- filling up to the brimful. this complete overwhelming feeling sweeping me under, carrying me away, completely owning me, letting me get lost in this world of transcendant emotion. her way with putting emotion into words is beyond, ironically enough, beyond words. amazing. the fic just weeps with emotion, it seeps out of every perfectly-placed word, every image, every visual detail, every characterization that just adds to the beautiful mozaic. this is power. this is-- art. this is all i've ever wanted out of literature and storytelling and life in general. so. ok you can all go read it now :D ha.

EDIT: and amalin has written `flowers for the dead' which claims spring with the same quiet fervor and perfection that ``falling" claimed autumn. ha. i can only hope no one but me does halloween, because well-- obviously i may then be squashed by my own wibbliness. *sigh* "seashell rim pink". all the images that conjures up, just those three words-- i console myself, that at least i'm good at appreciating all this, and thus co-create the story, letting these amazing images find a home in me. that's something, isn't it?
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hee...! *giggles* this ficlet by eleveninches is so, so just what i needed to take the um-- edge off. aww, it feels nice to smile. hee! adorable. i will never tire of cute-schoolboys!h/d. never.
    `ashes and lizard skin' is the first cute-schoolboys!h/d yet written for the `armchair slash' fic challenge, and i loff it muchly. hee. hand-lotion! winter! hee. aww.

~~*sigh* art-link time. happy happy joy...joy? and a stupid idea.

isn't this one of the most adorable harry/draco loffly-love pictures ever? there's just something so ... sweet and um-- well-proportioned (*cough*) about it, heh. just, the way he's holding harry, one hand on his stomach, and that smug look. it's simply adorable. most of shaera's fan-art on her list is pretty good, but that's probably still my favorite. *sigh*

this group-pic of "the gang" looks rather weird (their fake smiles, mostly), but it's absolutely exquisitely colored, and the style is unique and striking, so i thought i'd link to it. and, i kind of dig her evil!draco, he looks so realistic. yeah, and nordic, too ^^;; because, face it, he's bound to look like that, 7 times out of 10, probably.
    and she drew a mary-sue pic, which you've just got to admire. i mean, heh, how many of us would really be above it, if it weren't so plebey and embarrassing. heh. i can just imagine how many fan-artists have secret stashes of pics where a suspiciously familiar-looking girl is jumping draco :D
    and this is definitely an interesting way to see a tree nymph...
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penelope_z is of course, right. this fic by wax_jism has got it going on. oh yes. plot, and everything. unapologetic!draco. remus & sirius-- and everybody-- i could stand. oh. oh. oh. cruelty and mysteries and madness, these are some of my faaaavorite thiiiings~:) although. now i want saaaaap. sure, it's open-ended...but...but...but... life sucks, just like draco said. *pouts* and harry. how could he? hmf.

i'm like, wow, this isn't even fanfic-- this is just fic. better than most published original things in magazines, but then, we all know most of this fandom could kick serious paid-writer butt :D erm. well it's nice to think so, isn't it? someone should actually do a zine-- you know, like a printed zine-- even for this seasonal challenge-- i bet a number of us would want these stories in print, with nice fan-art, etc-- pay for copies at kinko's say? what say y'all? you are going to just ignore this, i realize, but. it's still a good idea. i yearn for a bi-annual hp slash zine, now. yes. we could do it. why do i have these ideas, which require organization, popularity, and lots of planning? dammit. *sigh* just. that story is -publishable-. it would be a great way to get our names out, y'know? ok, maybe not, but still. who knows. i don't -think- there is a zine for hp stuff (that i know of), and there should be-- this is better stuff than most star trek fic, and dare i say, most elfquest or star wars fic. yes.

yeah, me and my desire for a revolution, blah blah.

~~wherein i go on about the same old thing. just because i can. ha. so you can skip.

this h/d pic by zamber is beyond adorable. must...make...icon... of... predatory-but-blushing!harry and squeaky!malfoy, hehehee

erm. but i meant to post about something else, of course ^^;;

( because i am embarrassed that i'm still hung up on this whole, predictable entropy & `some things come easy and some-- don't' thing, but... it's just me ranting, i guess. )