~~ comrade slash thoughts
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reenkaMore than half the couples I like together have been friends first, and.... Having read a bit of Kirk/Spock lately, I've realized I'd grown out of my squick, but I still don't like the idea. It's weird, because I love quite a few friends-turned-soulmates matches... but since I loved the friendship alone for so long in this case, it made me realize that by "expanding", it really loses something precious.
I think it's different to me when the pairing is a squabbling duo, I guess-- where they argue and get on each other's nerves and drive each other mad, so there was never that sort of smooth, seamless melding between them. I think a squabbling, ever-uneasy (yet devoted) friendship makes a -great- romantic relationship because they never become a -unit-, quite. They're both quite ridiculously individualistic and need their space, as much as they love each other. It's like they're always going to be coming apart as much as they come together.
The thing that bothers me is the idea that at some point, a really deep friendship is not enough. That... it's just not satisfying somehow. Not deep enough? Not broad enough? Not fulfilling enough. Possibly not extreme enough? Something like that. And I'd be the first to say that 'love is not enough', but it's somewhat offensive when that's "fixed" by the addition of... well... sex.
I find that most people -write- about emotions without actually showing them, and the more extreme the emotion, the more people resort to simplifications. It's like... true platonic love is so rare, people feel the need to return to the things they know, make it fit into the same boundaries most other people's relationships do. After all, the usual stronger bonds are at least somewhat hormonal, I guess-- in families, that is, and between courting couples.
I keep returning to the concept of "comrades". It's one of the most typical targets for slashing, and I definitely see the appeal-- but I still feel like the relationship becomes more shallow that way. For one thing, the power dynamics become more blatantly significant. Sexual insecurities and unrelated intimacy and commitment issues could interfere. Suddenly, there are societal structures pointing the way for the relationship's future development, whereas before the friendship ran entirely under the radar of any sort of tradition. And it's not like merely not being a male/female pair makes you immune to societal couple pressure.
Couples bother me, to some degree. -Being- a couple. Whereas in friendship, you have individuals bound by affection and mutual history, with a couple you have a sort of... inertia of millions of years of sexual pairing practices. So suddenly, things that would have never made sense in a friendship (power games in particular) can be imagined.
People have said that sex makes platonic love "less pure", which I think is utter bullshit. It's not the sex at all-- it's everything that comes with it. Being a -couple- would change these people much more than sex would by itself, and -that's- what gives me pause. Sex alone is-- well-- a good thing, an enjoyable thing. Certainly, it's convenient in a way, allowing two people to share -everything- so that they don't have to go somewhere else for satisfaction. After all, why not keep all your eggs in one basket if you're already keeping 9 out of 10 in that basket, right? That's the argument, and I'm definitely not immune to it.
I think DV!Harry & Draco illustrate the point quite well, actually. While they're seamlessly attuned to each other, they can't be lovers. Their friendship is too all-encompassing, and if they were lovers, they'd lose something of themselves. So they do need distance-- a sort of controlled, pre-emptive loss-- if they were to be able to have the possibility, even.
The problem with Kirk/Spock is that so far, I haven't seen any writer introduce this distance before the sexual pairing happens. And in fact, I'm so attached to them as they are, deeply bonded and linked, that it really doesn't seem worth it. They don't have the problem of needing to settle down with someone else, and it thus being sensible to attain sexual gratification with each other, too. Neither ever settled down anyway, so instead, a sexual union would possibly drive them too close together, taking away the single measure of distance between them-- that single necessary measure of distance.
It's only now that I'm realizing that I think this distance is essential, as much as I love soul-bonding and deep connections between friends. Without some space where the other isn't (whether it's sexual or otherwise), I think the friendship would become suffocating. Completely overwhelming. One's -whole- identity would become tied up in this one person, and every part of one's mental balance and health would depend on them.
It's sad, of course, in a way. I mean, I actually really ship DV!Harry & Draco, and they're like, a textbook example of this sort of way-too-close friendship. They -need- the space between them, that no-touching space where they kiss people other than each other, otherwise I think their individuality and ability to function alone at -all- would seriously suffer, which would affect their mental health in the long term.
But I can't vouch for my analysis, of course. I'm a bad friend, I think, in that I go through periods where I crave space-- a lot of space. Even the deepest bond couldn't keep me in constant contact with someone. *sigh* It all gets to be too much, I guess, and the pulling away from everyone isn't even something I control. I know other people aren't... um... necessarily like this. Wah. But. I should say that "just" friendship... every person I really feel like I -know-... it means everything to me.
I think it's different to me when the pairing is a squabbling duo, I guess-- where they argue and get on each other's nerves and drive each other mad, so there was never that sort of smooth, seamless melding between them. I think a squabbling, ever-uneasy (yet devoted) friendship makes a -great- romantic relationship because they never become a -unit-, quite. They're both quite ridiculously individualistic and need their space, as much as they love each other. It's like they're always going to be coming apart as much as they come together.
The thing that bothers me is the idea that at some point, a really deep friendship is not enough. That... it's just not satisfying somehow. Not deep enough? Not broad enough? Not fulfilling enough. Possibly not extreme enough? Something like that. And I'd be the first to say that 'love is not enough', but it's somewhat offensive when that's "fixed" by the addition of... well... sex.
I find that most people -write- about emotions without actually showing them, and the more extreme the emotion, the more people resort to simplifications. It's like... true platonic love is so rare, people feel the need to return to the things they know, make it fit into the same boundaries most other people's relationships do. After all, the usual stronger bonds are at least somewhat hormonal, I guess-- in families, that is, and between courting couples.
I keep returning to the concept of "comrades". It's one of the most typical targets for slashing, and I definitely see the appeal-- but I still feel like the relationship becomes more shallow that way. For one thing, the power dynamics become more blatantly significant. Sexual insecurities and unrelated intimacy and commitment issues could interfere. Suddenly, there are societal structures pointing the way for the relationship's future development, whereas before the friendship ran entirely under the radar of any sort of tradition. And it's not like merely not being a male/female pair makes you immune to societal couple pressure.
Couples bother me, to some degree. -Being- a couple. Whereas in friendship, you have individuals bound by affection and mutual history, with a couple you have a sort of... inertia of millions of years of sexual pairing practices. So suddenly, things that would have never made sense in a friendship (power games in particular) can be imagined.
People have said that sex makes platonic love "less pure", which I think is utter bullshit. It's not the sex at all-- it's everything that comes with it. Being a -couple- would change these people much more than sex would by itself, and -that's- what gives me pause. Sex alone is-- well-- a good thing, an enjoyable thing. Certainly, it's convenient in a way, allowing two people to share -everything- so that they don't have to go somewhere else for satisfaction. After all, why not keep all your eggs in one basket if you're already keeping 9 out of 10 in that basket, right? That's the argument, and I'm definitely not immune to it.
I think DV!Harry & Draco illustrate the point quite well, actually. While they're seamlessly attuned to each other, they can't be lovers. Their friendship is too all-encompassing, and if they were lovers, they'd lose something of themselves. So they do need distance-- a sort of controlled, pre-emptive loss-- if they were to be able to have the possibility, even.
The problem with Kirk/Spock is that so far, I haven't seen any writer introduce this distance before the sexual pairing happens. And in fact, I'm so attached to them as they are, deeply bonded and linked, that it really doesn't seem worth it. They don't have the problem of needing to settle down with someone else, and it thus being sensible to attain sexual gratification with each other, too. Neither ever settled down anyway, so instead, a sexual union would possibly drive them too close together, taking away the single measure of distance between them-- that single necessary measure of distance.
It's only now that I'm realizing that I think this distance is essential, as much as I love soul-bonding and deep connections between friends. Without some space where the other isn't (whether it's sexual or otherwise), I think the friendship would become suffocating. Completely overwhelming. One's -whole- identity would become tied up in this one person, and every part of one's mental balance and health would depend on them.
It's sad, of course, in a way. I mean, I actually really ship DV!Harry & Draco, and they're like, a textbook example of this sort of way-too-close friendship. They -need- the space between them, that no-touching space where they kiss people other than each other, otherwise I think their individuality and ability to function alone at -all- would seriously suffer, which would affect their mental health in the long term.
But I can't vouch for my analysis, of course. I'm a bad friend, I think, in that I go through periods where I crave space-- a lot of space. Even the deepest bond couldn't keep me in constant contact with someone. *sigh* It all gets to be too much, I guess, and the pulling away from everyone isn't even something I control. I know other people aren't... um... necessarily like this. Wah. But. I should say that "just" friendship... every person I really feel like I -know-... it means everything to me.
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Date: 2004-05-13 12:37 am (UTC)Heheh, of course, all this sacrifice stuff only works for epic dramas, y'know :> Like, I dunno how it'd apply to "real life" or whatever. Unless it's a question of throwing yourself in front of a speeding train for the other person (heh).
Yeah, I'm like... all about friendship stories, really, much as I seem to have a reputation for being a porn-meister... it's just that my friendship (H/D) fics never get finished 'cause I can never get it quite right and I also suck at plot. Sigh. But yes, that freedom, that's what I love, that sense of... no rules, no boundaries. It's like they say slash redefines relationships, but then, you could avoid it all by being "platonic", eheheh. Though I'd miss the sex, so.... ^^; Dammit! No celibate fic utopia for me :>
I'd always said that I love H/D partly 'cause they have nowhere to go but up, heh. Nothing to lose, all that. I think our issues with friend-slash are somewhat like the issues the friends themselves would have, angstying about whether it's "worth it" to possibly contaminate the friendship somehow or whatever. Isn't that cute? :>