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reenkaUm... I don't know if I've ever said this, but... I don't really mind criticism. Not only that-- I -want- it. So if anyone (everyone?) has negative or "eh?? wtf?!?" comments to make (about the last ficlet or in general), bring it on! (Yes, this is as close as I'll get to actually soliciting feedback... ahahah how low I've sunk).
I mean, to me the concept of "flames" (that is, "unconstructive" crit) is just... weird, though I've gotten some. I'd never say "it's okay unless it's a flame", 'cause that'd be implying normal, sane people -write- flames. To me, a flame is a sign of huge immaturity and some anger issues that probably have nothing to do with me. And okay, that hurts, but I forget about it. Plus, most of those people can't even spell. Or think. They can only yell. So I mean... there's only so much weight I give people who sound like they're on the bad crack, I guess.
I'm weird, I guess. A lot of people are pretty attached to their work, and are particularly vulnerable when it comes to its reception by others. Me... I just want to know people -read- it, 'cause that's a -huge- big deal to me. Most of my life, even my mom wouldn't read what I write. Not that I'd ask her to. I mean, why would she want to read weird half-finished out there fantasy with extra helpings of porn, anyway? My grandmas offer to read it, though. They never say anything. But they collect it. So like, when their friends come over they can point at their stack of granddaughter-fic and beam proudly, I guess.
So... I just want to be upfront about where this whole attitude comes from. If no one says anything, I assume no one -reads- it. And that gets me thinking as to whether I really am writing to an audience, with this lj. I am, sort of. I mean... I know people read me, but it's easy to forget, I guess. Also, when I find something interesting at all, as far as fic, I tend to comment, if I read. It's only when I'm very overwhelmed with other writings or pressed for time or I just haven't read it yet that I don't comment. Or if it's really really awful :D
Anyway. I know that last fic was weird and possibly near-incomprehensible, but... it's hard to judge that objectively, having not shown it to anyone before posting. So I guess... I've grown semi-addicted to the idea of feedback as a way of gauging what works and what doesn't, what I should do more of and what seems to leave people hanging. I think that's partly why I've become more realistic and dialogue-oriented in my writing in general. But I still see any feedback as a favor, and I don't tend to ask for things I consider favors from people... so this is just in case anyone ever -wanted- to comment and didn't because it wasn't positive. Basically... my ego isn't really a factor when it comes to my fics. I just can't help writing 'em. Wouldn't stop even if no one said anything for the next half a year. But... I dunno. Eventually, I might not post it, I guess.
I mean, to me the concept of "flames" (that is, "unconstructive" crit) is just... weird, though I've gotten some. I'd never say "it's okay unless it's a flame", 'cause that'd be implying normal, sane people -write- flames. To me, a flame is a sign of huge immaturity and some anger issues that probably have nothing to do with me. And okay, that hurts, but I forget about it. Plus, most of those people can't even spell. Or think. They can only yell. So I mean... there's only so much weight I give people who sound like they're on the bad crack, I guess.
I'm weird, I guess. A lot of people are pretty attached to their work, and are particularly vulnerable when it comes to its reception by others. Me... I just want to know people -read- it, 'cause that's a -huge- big deal to me. Most of my life, even my mom wouldn't read what I write. Not that I'd ask her to. I mean, why would she want to read weird half-finished out there fantasy with extra helpings of porn, anyway? My grandmas offer to read it, though. They never say anything. But they collect it. So like, when their friends come over they can point at their stack of granddaughter-fic and beam proudly, I guess.
So... I just want to be upfront about where this whole attitude comes from. If no one says anything, I assume no one -reads- it. And that gets me thinking as to whether I really am writing to an audience, with this lj. I am, sort of. I mean... I know people read me, but it's easy to forget, I guess. Also, when I find something interesting at all, as far as fic, I tend to comment, if I read. It's only when I'm very overwhelmed with other writings or pressed for time or I just haven't read it yet that I don't comment. Or if it's really really awful :D
Anyway. I know that last fic was weird and possibly near-incomprehensible, but... it's hard to judge that objectively, having not shown it to anyone before posting. So I guess... I've grown semi-addicted to the idea of feedback as a way of gauging what works and what doesn't, what I should do more of and what seems to leave people hanging. I think that's partly why I've become more realistic and dialogue-oriented in my writing in general. But I still see any feedback as a favor, and I don't tend to ask for things I consider favors from people... so this is just in case anyone ever -wanted- to comment and didn't because it wasn't positive. Basically... my ego isn't really a factor when it comes to my fics. I just can't help writing 'em. Wouldn't stop even if no one said anything for the next half a year. But... I dunno. Eventually, I might not post it, I guess.
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Date: 2004-04-24 06:24 pm (UTC)My mother doesn't like to read anything of mine either. When I was younger the few things I tried to get her to read just illicited completely unhelpful criticism. Her usual response was: "Well, 'who cares?' was my feeling..."
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Date: 2004-04-25 01:33 am (UTC)Although... I get the feeling that it's just that my writing isn't her "type" and she'd be more interested if I wrote clearer, more logical and realistic fic. Or something. Well, you know, I'm getting there.
Also. Wah. You = the best!! One comment is just as nourishing as 10, to me. Especially when I care about the commenter's opinion in particular~:) It's just sort of... okay, not shouting into the empty wilderness. Oh good. Whew.
It's sad 'cause I -am- working on half a dozen "normal", dialogue-ridden fics, it's just... er... those are complicated. And weird imagistic stuff is like... my equivalent of wham-bam-thank-you-ma'am fic. Like... porn for the philosophy grad student set, y'know :D
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Date: 2004-04-25 08:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-04-25 01:48 pm (UTC)I do dislike whole genres, though. I really don't like sexualized horror (though, ahahah, that's sort of my last ficlet, isn't it). But... if I find it realistic and well-written and not pandering to type, then I'd like it even more 'cause it made me get over my issues to like it. But come to think of it, a lot of people dismiss writing 'cause it's not what they normally read. *sigh*
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Date: 2004-04-25 01:28 pm (UTC)Just to give you an idea of what I like to read (not that you shouldn't continue to write whatever moves you), my favorite fic of yours so far has been "Morning Run". (oh. dear. aren't you sorry you asked, now?)
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Date: 2004-04-25 01:40 pm (UTC)My fics have gotten darker recently, haven't they? It's probably real-life related somewhat, and also me working out post-OoTP issues 'cause I think for me, H/D got a lot darker since then. But thanks! :D Wheee, input :D