~~ beautiful world.

[reenka]

so. i read the last chapter of `beautiful world' around sunrise. strangely fitting, actually. and i couldn't really come up with anything to say-- partly 'cause i was/am falling asleep, partly because instead of feeling -sad-, i felt strangely peaceful and faded, like the world had become softer and more fragile, and somehow more luminous. i didn't want it all to be so... delicately sublime, like a watercolor painting, but it wouldn't move, just sort of floating across my mind. there was pain somewhere out there, but i couldn't feel it, it wasn't -real-. there was only this feeling of shimmering sadness, like a dawn rainbow after a nighttime rain.

so instead of a review, there's this.

Comments

[starflowers.livejournal.com]

Oh wow, that's gorgeous... I'm completely stunned, that's so beautiful, and just the way I saw it all when I wrote it. So pretty...

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

eeeeee, am so glad you like~:)
that was probably the more life-affirming, prettiest deathfic ever. or maybe lifefic~:)
death & life: they go together ^^

[starflowers.livejournal.com]

*clings and wails* someone just emailed me upset because I didn't label it a deathfic but I didn't think of it as a deathfic because it's a LIFEfic haha but now I feel bad!

*coughs* sorry hehe I had to wail. Because... because they sounded so disappointed in me.

Anyway. Beautiful BEAUTIFUL picture. I adore it. I've saved it. Someday when I have a colour cartridge, I shall print it and hang it on my wall.

[yourpoison.livejournal.com]

*meeps*
yah, i was surprised in a sort of "hey, deathfic!" sort of way but not in a "well, -this- doesn't make sense" sort of way. we're so used to being prepared. i mean. a lot of people probably wouldn't have read it if they knew, but some of the power is gone, probably, if you know, 'cause the whole time you'd be kind of a bit distant from the characters, counting down the days and knowing more than they do and so on.
and just...
usually in a fic where one of the main characters dies, there's a lot of angst and pain and blood and gore-- so it's like, life sucks and then you die, usually. and this wasn't. and people don't necessarily love to entertain the idea that you can -love- life and not want to -leave- and still, you do.
because in the end, that's what happens, isn't it. no one -wants- to die and they aren't all depressed suicidal maniacs, and they die anyway. happy, fulfilled, loved people die all the time, without wanting to, with it being too early, with all of their life in front of them. and there's no way to -stop- it, really. there's no way to always prevent it. there's no fairness or logic or kindness to it.

that's why i love the idea of the Fates being the Kindly Ones.
i love the idea of death being beautiful and kind and sweet, but it kills you anyway, you know?

and... i messed with it a little, so maybe it's good
you saved it, depending ><;;
i can never stop~:)