~~ ranter without a cause. heh.
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reenkai kind of like being curmudgeony, but it certainly makes me feel... even more unreasonable than usual. disturbing, kind of, just how many things can annoy you once you set your mind to it. eep. most often, i can't even put my finger on it, and just bristle. 'course, usually i'm annoyed by pretention, stupidity, lack of taste and prejudice. but no, these are all related, so probably i'm still annoyed by that one thing. everyone knows people are stupid, but what no one tells you is that intelligent, discerning people are stupid too. there's really no escaping it-- and if everyone is stupid, the word loses its meaning, of course. not that i'm the arbitrer of stupidity or lack thereof, and as usual once you're not infatuated with something, it's a lot easier to see all the stupidities and fatuities in the system. oh yes, fatuity. so, so many people are guilty of it. shallow, lazy thinking passes for something worth giving a sneeze about every day. not that i'm setting myself somewhere above it and saying i'm better-- it annoys me anyway.
repetition is a major culprit. for some reason, the concept of "let's say it again" holds this mass appeal, because, well, no one gets it the first time, and there are always new people, right, who haven't heard it before. we must do it for them. it's educational. that's why we try-- it's because we care. yes.
the problem is also just that i have this erroneous instinct to say, "well, people can tell -me- this, but i can't tell -them-". you can tell me i'm being stupid and lazy-thinking anytime. anytime. i will listen, i will try to understand, to see what i'm missing. i may not change my mind, but i would not get offended. i get this sneaking suspicion that i can't go around telling people they're talking crap. god, how that annoys me. and it's not even crap because it has no inherent value. it's crap because we've all heard it before, we all know it, there are better ways to say it again, and it's so purely self-indulgent and masturbatory as to discomfit even -me-, who is the mistress of self-indulgent masturbatory rhetoric.
i'm not even referring to anything in specific-- but then, so -many- things are like that. talking meta, analyzing, thinking-- is such a double-edged sword. i may be shallow, i may be missing something by not thinking much (though, obviously -some-) about `queer as folk' and only humming in pleasure-- but at least that's what it is, and no one can contest it-- it's pleasure. try to quantify pleasure, and unless you've got more intelligence than most people are willing to show, you sound like a complete dork. this pretty much includes me, yes.
one of the things that bothers me the most (er... in fandom, i guess) is an unmitigated endorsement of others' fiction on a large scale-- the best-seller phenomenon. it just sort of pushes itself after awhile. when it becomes just like... "read it, it's good! so good! read it! i read it, you should read it too! it's so good!!" it just makes me ill. i will -not- read it (for the longest time-- this is what happened with hp, anyway-- even to this day there's a bad taste in my mouth about jkr's books because the whole bloody -world- pimped them), but then, i'm very curmudgeony as i said. i have rated fics before myself, but i think when you continuously pimp them instead of discussing them or saying anything except "it's good-- in this/this/this/this/and this way", then it just becomes mindless propaganda.
and well, out of all the things in the universe that people do, i hate two of them the most: propaganda (mind-control & dominance of any sort) & insensitivity (cruelty to animals, people, plants, anything). i mean, i've shipped h/d with a huge intensity-- that's why i was ever -in- the fandom-- but i love anti-h/d rhetoric, i can empathize with it. it must suck to have there be this machine of h/d, h/d everywhere. entirely natural, because there will -always- be popular things and less popular things, but that doesn't make it less horribly annoying. sigh.
and what the hell? copyrighting fanfics? oh yes, i suppose you can add "wankery" to the list of the things that annoy me most. that is pretty much the definition of wankery. oh yes, and the propaganda is wankery too. 'course, actually attacking particular -people- in any way is in itself wankery, so there's a lack of options as to how to express one's righteous rage, heh. i found this fic where it actually says 'copyrighted 10/31/02' at the top, and now i don't wanna read it. fuck that. that's the same sort of thing that turns into the persecution (oops, i mean prosecution) of fanfic writers when the person actually becomes a success (by some insane fluke of fate). 'course, i didn't really wanna read it in the first place, but i have this gig where i check out any recced h/d fic (i'm so thorough it hurts, it really does). but it's postwar, too. eh. hell with it.
*grins* eeeeee, i don't have to like it!! it is pretty sucky, although with potential. ha! yeay! i was right! i'm not that biased. no need to read it, even for fairness sake. heh....
okay, fine, i read even more of it and now i'm liking it against my will, even if it -does- have mean!harry which is just insane-- and somewhat offensive, because a harry who doesn't know what love is is just not harry to me, and jaded-slut!draco which makes me sick just 'cause it's so overdone and it was a one-trick pony to start with. although this proves that even now, burnt out as i am, i'd still forgive a whole lot of iffy writing for some desperate!harry and slowly-melting!draco. damn me, damn me to hell. though at least it's a sexy hell. damn frottage, gets me every time. ok, so the fic is rather inventive and interesting, if you ignore the extreme amounts of exposition, awkward wording, semi-offensive characterization of harry, mostly-ooc-draco and an almost complete lack of actual interaction-- as in, dialogue and not summation, frustrating as all hell-- to back up the h/d. heh. the ideas, seriously, are more fresh than most of the stuff out there. i'm reading an h/d for the plot. this has never happened before. oh god. first time for everything? like, wow. and mind you, i -hate- evil!dumbledore, i really do. no, really. but it makes sense anyway, doesn't it.
this makes me wonder if plot-heavy chaptered fics are counter-productive to an entirely believable romance between harry & draco (or maybe believable romance in general?). or maybe it needs to be -really- long, then. plot that doesn't revolve around their relationship, that is. maybe you can have that in a sequel... or something, but it seems like without a lot of attention paid to it, the relationship becomes a leap-of-faith sort of phenomenon, which bothers me. i mean, this fic goes from apathetic!draco who merely tolerates harry's advances to slightly-softening!draco who grows to like them sometimes, to reciprocating!draco without actually -explaining- or giving them enough airtime to charm the reader into belief. lots of sex in 2 sentences or less, gratuitous and yet unsatisfying. while i do like the plot, the characters' motivations are merely -stated-, and never actually created. this is poor writing, no matter who does it. wah. that one crit i posted to the veela list must've really sent me on the long-term warpath, heh.
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it just occurred to me yesterday, in one of those flashes of pointless insight that mean nothing to anyone but me, that i find almost nothing as hateful as people proclaiming opinions as if they were fact.
because no matter what you're saying, if you're that certain, you're too certain. you're blinded and in effect blind. you're lying to yourself and to your audience at the same time under the pretense of truth. rhetoric should be spoken within the confines of rhetoric-- in the style & format of an argument. rhetoric disguised as simple statement of accepted precepts insults the listener's intelligence and your own as the speaker.
this is probably the root of my huge bias towards "show-don't-tell" storytelling. as a storyteller, you're in the business of speaking the truth outfitted in lies. this is a delicate, subtle procedure, easy to mess up. all stories both are and aren't true, and the writer needs to be sensitive to the many gradations within that concept to be successful at really capturing the minds, hearts & imaginations of the audience.
admittedly, i tend to overcompensate and over-qualify my statements and end up making my actual stand too implied, even incomprehensible. i do actually have an ego, of course, and actually am often convinced i'm right about all manner of things, but i consider it in such poor taste to be bombastic as to be deeply offensive a lot of times.
i admire outrageousness, out-spokenness, brashness, actually. speaking uncensored isn't the same as being an ego-maniacal, closed-minded, self-righteous asshole, on the other hand. being passionate and honest doesn't have to mean being an exclusionary and rabid propaganda machine. you can feel strongly, basically, without forcing it on others. that force is, to me, a basic human right being threatened. the right to think for yourself, feel for yourself.
as soon as someone approaches disturbing that circle of clarity, they become one of "them". the opressors. i'm serious about this.
you think it's stupid to apply this to not using "show-don't-tell" in fiction? maybe so. but the principle remains. voltaire said something like, "i may not agree with a word you said, but i will defend your right to say it to the death."
free speech isn't just a lack of censorship. that's really a rather superficial view. the issue here is about having a deep respect and tolerance for those views contradictory to yours. you would need to accept your limitations as an individual for free speech to really -work-.
you (in general), whoever you are, whatever you happen to think, are not omniscient. face it. you don't know all there is to know about absolutely anything. you thus cannot be "right". no one is right-- or all wrong, either. no one can really -judge-, regardless. if you, then, think you "know", you're wrong. you don't. if you don't know that, this basic awareness of limitations, you know even less. if you then use your false knowledge as fact-- as something outside opinion-- thus deceiving & controlling others-- you basically re-create the original sin as far as i'm concerned.
i'm not christian, so obviously, who cares, but it pisses me off something fierce, too. and yes, i just got all self-righteous about self-righteousness. sigh. at least i admit it?
repetition is a major culprit. for some reason, the concept of "let's say it again" holds this mass appeal, because, well, no one gets it the first time, and there are always new people, right, who haven't heard it before. we must do it for them. it's educational. that's why we try-- it's because we care. yes.
the problem is also just that i have this erroneous instinct to say, "well, people can tell -me- this, but i can't tell -them-". you can tell me i'm being stupid and lazy-thinking anytime. anytime. i will listen, i will try to understand, to see what i'm missing. i may not change my mind, but i would not get offended. i get this sneaking suspicion that i can't go around telling people they're talking crap. god, how that annoys me. and it's not even crap because it has no inherent value. it's crap because we've all heard it before, we all know it, there are better ways to say it again, and it's so purely self-indulgent and masturbatory as to discomfit even -me-, who is the mistress of self-indulgent masturbatory rhetoric.
i'm not even referring to anything in specific-- but then, so -many- things are like that. talking meta, analyzing, thinking-- is such a double-edged sword. i may be shallow, i may be missing something by not thinking much (though, obviously -some-) about `queer as folk' and only humming in pleasure-- but at least that's what it is, and no one can contest it-- it's pleasure. try to quantify pleasure, and unless you've got more intelligence than most people are willing to show, you sound like a complete dork. this pretty much includes me, yes.
one of the things that bothers me the most (er... in fandom, i guess) is an unmitigated endorsement of others' fiction on a large scale-- the best-seller phenomenon. it just sort of pushes itself after awhile. when it becomes just like... "read it, it's good! so good! read it! i read it, you should read it too! it's so good!!" it just makes me ill. i will -not- read it (for the longest time-- this is what happened with hp, anyway-- even to this day there's a bad taste in my mouth about jkr's books because the whole bloody -world- pimped them), but then, i'm very curmudgeony as i said. i have rated fics before myself, but i think when you continuously pimp them instead of discussing them or saying anything except "it's good-- in this/this/this/this/and this way", then it just becomes mindless propaganda.
and well, out of all the things in the universe that people do, i hate two of them the most: propaganda (mind-control & dominance of any sort) & insensitivity (cruelty to animals, people, plants, anything). i mean, i've shipped h/d with a huge intensity-- that's why i was ever -in- the fandom-- but i love anti-h/d rhetoric, i can empathize with it. it must suck to have there be this machine of h/d, h/d everywhere. entirely natural, because there will -always- be popular things and less popular things, but that doesn't make it less horribly annoying. sigh.
and what the hell? copyrighting fanfics? oh yes, i suppose you can add "wankery" to the list of the things that annoy me most. that is pretty much the definition of wankery. oh yes, and the propaganda is wankery too. 'course, actually attacking particular -people- in any way is in itself wankery, so there's a lack of options as to how to express one's righteous rage, heh. i found this fic where it actually says 'copyrighted 10/31/02' at the top, and now i don't wanna read it. fuck that. that's the same sort of thing that turns into the persecution (oops, i mean prosecution) of fanfic writers when the person actually becomes a success (by some insane fluke of fate). 'course, i didn't really wanna read it in the first place, but i have this gig where i check out any recced h/d fic (i'm so thorough it hurts, it really does). but it's postwar, too. eh. hell with it.
*grins* eeeeee, i don't have to like it!! it is pretty sucky, although with potential. ha! yeay! i was right! i'm not that biased. no need to read it, even for fairness sake. heh....
okay, fine, i read even more of it and now i'm liking it against my will, even if it -does- have mean!harry which is just insane-- and somewhat offensive, because a harry who doesn't know what love is is just not harry to me, and jaded-slut!draco which makes me sick just 'cause it's so overdone and it was a one-trick pony to start with. although this proves that even now, burnt out as i am, i'd still forgive a whole lot of iffy writing for some desperate!harry and slowly-melting!draco. damn me, damn me to hell. though at least it's a sexy hell. damn frottage, gets me every time. ok, so the fic is rather inventive and interesting, if you ignore the extreme amounts of exposition, awkward wording, semi-offensive characterization of harry, mostly-ooc-draco and an almost complete lack of actual interaction-- as in, dialogue and not summation, frustrating as all hell-- to back up the h/d. heh. the ideas, seriously, are more fresh than most of the stuff out there. i'm reading an h/d for the plot. this has never happened before. oh god. first time for everything? like, wow. and mind you, i -hate- evil!dumbledore, i really do. no, really. but it makes sense anyway, doesn't it.
this makes me wonder if plot-heavy chaptered fics are counter-productive to an entirely believable romance between harry & draco (or maybe believable romance in general?). or maybe it needs to be -really- long, then. plot that doesn't revolve around their relationship, that is. maybe you can have that in a sequel... or something, but it seems like without a lot of attention paid to it, the relationship becomes a leap-of-faith sort of phenomenon, which bothers me. i mean, this fic goes from apathetic!draco who merely tolerates harry's advances to slightly-softening!draco who grows to like them sometimes, to reciprocating!draco without actually -explaining- or giving them enough airtime to charm the reader into belief. lots of sex in 2 sentences or less, gratuitous and yet unsatisfying. while i do like the plot, the characters' motivations are merely -stated-, and never actually created. this is poor writing, no matter who does it. wah. that one crit i posted to the veela list must've really sent me on the long-term warpath, heh.
~~
it just occurred to me yesterday, in one of those flashes of pointless insight that mean nothing to anyone but me, that i find almost nothing as hateful as people proclaiming opinions as if they were fact.
because no matter what you're saying, if you're that certain, you're too certain. you're blinded and in effect blind. you're lying to yourself and to your audience at the same time under the pretense of truth. rhetoric should be spoken within the confines of rhetoric-- in the style & format of an argument. rhetoric disguised as simple statement of accepted precepts insults the listener's intelligence and your own as the speaker.
this is probably the root of my huge bias towards "show-don't-tell" storytelling. as a storyteller, you're in the business of speaking the truth outfitted in lies. this is a delicate, subtle procedure, easy to mess up. all stories both are and aren't true, and the writer needs to be sensitive to the many gradations within that concept to be successful at really capturing the minds, hearts & imaginations of the audience.
admittedly, i tend to overcompensate and over-qualify my statements and end up making my actual stand too implied, even incomprehensible. i do actually have an ego, of course, and actually am often convinced i'm right about all manner of things, but i consider it in such poor taste to be bombastic as to be deeply offensive a lot of times.
i admire outrageousness, out-spokenness, brashness, actually. speaking uncensored isn't the same as being an ego-maniacal, closed-minded, self-righteous asshole, on the other hand. being passionate and honest doesn't have to mean being an exclusionary and rabid propaganda machine. you can feel strongly, basically, without forcing it on others. that force is, to me, a basic human right being threatened. the right to think for yourself, feel for yourself.
as soon as someone approaches disturbing that circle of clarity, they become one of "them". the opressors. i'm serious about this.
you think it's stupid to apply this to not using "show-don't-tell" in fiction? maybe so. but the principle remains. voltaire said something like, "i may not agree with a word you said, but i will defend your right to say it to the death."
free speech isn't just a lack of censorship. that's really a rather superficial view. the issue here is about having a deep respect and tolerance for those views contradictory to yours. you would need to accept your limitations as an individual for free speech to really -work-.
you (in general), whoever you are, whatever you happen to think, are not omniscient. face it. you don't know all there is to know about absolutely anything. you thus cannot be "right". no one is right-- or all wrong, either. no one can really -judge-, regardless. if you, then, think you "know", you're wrong. you don't. if you don't know that, this basic awareness of limitations, you know even less. if you then use your false knowledge as fact-- as something outside opinion-- thus deceiving & controlling others-- you basically re-create the original sin as far as i'm concerned.
i'm not christian, so obviously, who cares, but it pisses me off something fierce, too. and yes, i just got all self-righteous about self-righteousness. sigh. at least i admit it?
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Date: 2003-06-11 07:54 am (UTC)in fact, i started this journal -for- reccing, and it's -still- a fandom weblog mostly, not "reena's personal journal".
i was pissed at a reccer who's particularly aggressive and who pimps so hard and so constantly and so "READ THIS BECAUSE THIS IS GREATNESS AND IF YOU DON'T THINK SO YOU SUCK", i resent it. the last straw was with the `kings of the broken wheel' rec where she said that if the fic didn't make us ache, we weren't human.
saying, "i love this, and here's why, and go on, read it, read it!" is great, it's fine. mixing opinion and fact-- as in, "this is greatness and i, the great pumba, arbitrer of good fic, am here to tell you so" pisses me off so much i want to -bite- things.
heh~:)
that's why i was calling it -propaganda-. mere -recommendation- isn't propaganda. mixing opinion and fact doesn't occur when either is stated, but only when one masquerades as the other.
i know i am too general all the time, and thus people -take- it in too general of a way, but..... there are different sorts of reccing, and most people don't notice that, but i do.
that's all~:)
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Date: 2003-06-11 07:57 am (UTC)