reenka

often enough i use this journal to rec things and squee and act like a complete schoolgirl who has no brain. this is one of those times.

`and i get by', by

silviakundera, has completely eaten any eloquence i may possibly have had, and all i can do is say, oh my -gahd- i adore it, and this is like -it-, yes, yes. all condensed and bottled and yes. if everything was this spot-on, i wouldn't need to write anything and i could take a long vacation with some mai-tais (i would also be able to hold my drink), and i would wallow in the glory that is other people's talent, and draw fanart perhaps, just because i can. yes.

joy. this is what i feel like, reading that. that is basically how my highest level of reccing gets achieved. if i feel -joy- reading something, if it curls my toes and makes me happy to be alive-- i am so amazed and entranced i can't even begin to describe. lots of fics depress me and make me heartbroken and tense and upset and desolate. and i really like that too, and that's rare as well. but only very -very- few stories really bring me complete joy and happiness, not cliched and not surface-sap level, but deep down and real.

penelope_z mentioned this recently, that she really wants stories that make her -feel- and it's a lot easier to achieve sadness than happiness for some reason, and i remarked at the time that it's somewhat surprisingly true for me also. i'm not an angst-hound, but i find in most fics it's the angsty bits that really stand out and grab me by the throat and so on. maybe it's because sadness is easier, or more universal in source, or more commonly felt, i dunno. all i do know is that out of all the brilliant writers in the hp fandom, i can count on the fingers of one hand the ones whose fics make me -happy-, blissfully so. not just -delighted- or pleased or sated-- joyful. thankful. renewed.
so yes. i'm being completely schmoopy about this, but eh, who cares, everyone knows i'm a softy anyway, heh.

EDIT - and yes, btw, this is the friends!harry&draco fic i've been craving, and yes, it's for meeeeeee (um. yes, gleeful), and i am probably biased. but no. because it's just what i wanted, and it says just what i knew it could, and this shows it and it's right and i'm right, and harry & draco are right, and yes. it's not at all inconceivable.