~~wibbles [& a draco drabble~!] & a plea for recs, and so on.

[reenka]

i saw someone from my early few years in college today, before i took a few years off for the Evil Trip Into Hell, Otherwise Known As Being a Bum on the Run. (i assure you it's a lot more boring than it sounds). *wibble*

i wish people didn't keep saying, ``last i knew, you were in california". so yah, what am i doing here? what are my plans? well. i'm just waiting to figure that out. yes, i'm 24. yes, i'm not even weird anymore, apparently. yes, i never was. yes, i'm too sentimental & attached to people who "aren't worth it". (he said... he said my beloved amanda wasn't worth it..!)

we chatted. i felt pathetic. he was snarky about my (beloved) amanda (basically, the popular chick who was actually really sensitive, had a break-down and renounced our whole group of friends and left town, and everyone's bitter because they loved her). i said i miss her because i love her and he's like, "yeah she's easy to fall in love with." what the hell's that??! i love her. i don't expect anything from her. i don't even need her to talk to me. i just love her-- i'm not in love with her. why is everyone so jaded about someone who they used to like, just because she isn't a social butterfly anymore? i guess he feels rejected. i can't really tell what he's thinking. he's nice, but snarkier than he used to be. i think he's "grown up", sort of.

``you need new friends," he said. i wanted to die.

``you're not that weird. you never were," he said.
i meeped. when someone thinks they know you, it's really a bitch. no one's keeping in touch. *wibble* i'm not either. amanda was magic. that doesn't happen often. it's not a question of "new friends". although i could use some. it's a question of still retaining what i've been in every bit of who i am. but anyway. erm. guh. this is weird. real-life? is that what this is?
    huh.
~~
i realized what this fandom needs is a comprehensive list of goodfic. i don't mean an on-going list of recs that gets updated. i mean-- we're an old fandom. we need to keep in touch with our past. heh. yes that's my topic for today. as if i had a topic. i mean, the ``classics" that no one ever links to or mentions anymore, assuming everyone's read it, been reading it, been there done that. well, people are still coming into this fandom who care about reading all the goodfic (preferrably h/d, i admit), that there is to read. and i'm not -too- worried about it being h/d, since old fic is probably gonna be h/d anyway ^^;;

so, if someone wanted to um. reply to this and gimme a few names. as many as you can remember. i'll compile it. not that anyone cares. no one ever does, about any of my Wouldn't It Be Swell ideas. oh, sure, others think it'll be swell, but no one's ever like, "yes, reena! why don't i help you out with that! here, why don't i become involved and make this happen, because i know you're too lazy, and i have been inspired..!" heh~:) oh well, too good to be true.
    still, to review, for those (like me), keeping track:

    - Reena's Brilliant Idea #1: community (slashersanon) for people who're desperate for reviews: everyone gets reviewed by everyone else. guarranteed. implicitly pledged by anyone signing up. no one shall ever want for reviews again. yes, the world is a brighter place, now. not.

    - Reena's Brilliant Idea #2: community (hp_newyork) for slash (especially h/d slash, but no matter) people in the new york area (tri-state or whole-country or city or anything, come one come all), to organize seeing CoS (premier) together. possibly slight con-type thing. something fun for everyone, etc. *sigh* i -know- there's a bunch of you around here. *pouts*

    - Reena's Brilliant Idea #3: idea for slashhpcon and elsewhere-- make a fanzine (paper), bi-annual, or annual, or what have you-- of the best of the best, for h/d (or other) fic and fan-art. zines are cool. bringing all the best (publishable-quality) writing and showcasing it and showing it around and leaving it lying around campus and elsewhere (watch my evil plans grow)-- uber-cool. yes. number of people who want to take any of this off my hands: 0. *sigh* oh well. it sucks to be progressive ;)

onwards.

obligatory links of the day (w00t): this image of a punk girl leaning against a wall really reminds me of why i like cities (the magic, i mean-- the magic). i dunno why. david heigho's comics are wrong, wrong, wrong. ha. someone who makes fun of jthm fans and x-men and so on while lovin' 'em himself, is my kind of person. yeah. um. nevermind, for my own benefit, then.
    johnwalton wrote a nummy severus/james & h/d fic (whee..! feeding my new `ship) time-twisting, predestination, lovers-lost-but-love-never-will stuff. snap.

"Shut up, boy, you're the one fucking a Malfoy," Severus shot back.
hee, hee.
~~
i wrote a gen(!) draco-centric drabble. i thought it was kinda crappy so i didn't post it but, but, puckmalfoy said she liked it, so-- i mean-- yes. here, then. (this is what happens when you combine the `crayola challenge' and the `armchair slash' seasonal challenge and reading a bunch of ethrosdemon and hackthis, not that i expect this is anything like their stuff, but i don't usually -do- exposition in quite this way. so. *wibble* yes.)


~~Burnt Orange



Something wicked this way comes. It's not Draco Malfoy, everyone has pretty much figured that out. It's not, and he knows that as well. It sits, hard and immovable, a stone in his throat, a knot in his stomach. He cannot swallow it. He cannot face growing older, and some days he cannot face his own reflection. It is autumn, and he is thinking of everyone's death but his own. The leaves are falling, gold and orange and sienna and plain, dying brown, rustling and disintegrating, dust beneath his feet. He smiles, because he is breathing, and because tomorrow is another day, and he can try again.

His breath burns his throat, and he has to take care, he has to make them last. He is bleeding from the side, and there is a steady stream dripping off his fingers. But he will leave-- he will leave the grounds, and he will be free. He isn't dying, after all. It is just a scratch, and he will make it. He has to make it. His own life is all that's left to him.

He sits on a rotting log, by sparkling bright running water, closes his eyes. He dips his fingers into the icy stream, and then his arm, and then he's leaning down, both arms touching the silty bottom, restless with moving water, slick and dangerous with the tumbling river-rocks. He closes his eyes, breathing in crisp fall air, the image of the setting sun, low in the sky, gold burned down to orange, blazing at the back of his eyelids. His throat is smooth, and free of obstruction as he swallows gratefully. Tomorrow he will walk on, but today it is enough to feel, not so much numb as transparent. Crystalline. Burned down to the center. In the harsh orange light at his very center, the sun may be setting but the stars are waiting to come out.

Comments

[ethrosdemon.livejournal.com]

Very existentialist. Perfect for a post battle pov fic. All the details create a crystal picture of where Draco was this one minute of his life.

Even if you don’t write this normally, maybe you should.
I would have commented before, but LJ was yankin’ my chain.

list of fics

[(Anonymous)]

i like your idea about having a list of fics - a LOT. i only started reading hp fanfic during august, and i've wanted a list of recs. so here are my suggestions...btw, if you compile a list of recs, could you also please say where the fics can be found? i've had a hard time finding a lot of the fics/authors who've been recommended to me, especially since ff.net's taken off the NC-17 stuff ::scowl::.

cat
anaimos

abaddon: Bohemian Rhapsody, Playing the Game, Sweet Dreams sequence, Power of Goodbye, In Memoriam, Cast No Shadows, To Have and To Hold, An Oral Fixation, Smoke. (all available at his site)

aidan lynch: unthinkable thoughts (schnoogle.com)

aja: love under will, strip/TEASE!!, Assurance, Admission, blue jeans harry, monsoon season. (all up at fictionalley.org or PSA - http://chibihanna.net/psa/psa.html)

al (alexmalfoy) - Snitch! (schnoogle.com), Time of Trials (schnoogle.com), fairytale of new york (at fictionalley.org...somewhere in the houses)

a.l de sauveterre - Harry Potter and the society of orpheus and bacchus (schnoogle.com), Postal (thedarkarts.org)

ali wildgoose - sins of the father (schnoogle)

angua9 - fifth year from hell (schnoogle)

antenora - the losing side (pure magnetism - http://puremagnetism.gq.nu/), to rule in hell (pure magnetism)

audrey t-h - brief interval before resuming play (PSA)

cassandra claire - draco dormiens, draco sinister, draco veritas (all at schnoogle)

durendal - how haryr potter got his groove back (schnoogle)

IvyBlossom - Origins, Haven, Belong (all at PSA), Extracurricular (PSA)

nancy - malfoy!P.I. (schnoogle)

francespotter - coming of age (schnoogle), 08042002 (PSA), Resolution (schnoogle)

penelope-z - untold want (schnoogle)

penguin - dragonweed (schnoogle)

rhysenn - windswept feelings (astronomytower.org), irresistible poison (schnoogle), all the fics she's written whose titles i forget...

shalott - weather of the heart sequence (http://home.nyu.edu/~amw243/fiction/writers/shalott.html)

slightlights - remember (thedarkarts.org)