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reenka*trembling sigh*
i've seen it before, you see. but, this wasn't a third-rate copy, and it was a large screen, and... and...
a bit weepy still...
the music.... is just astonishingly good, haunting, beautiful, painful, delicate and it weaves this spell around you. especially with good speakers... it just really grabbed me and wouldn't let me go. and, i'm in love with van. and... the animation is better than princess mononoke, and better than the last vampire hunter d, and better than... a lot of things.
van... van.... is just.
when i first saw it, it was relatively near to my watching of the series, so i was kind of comparing and contrasting, whether i wanted to or not, and i don't think that was helpful. but now... half a year later... oh... my... gahd.
how did i miss that it was/is like, an amazing grand piece of animated storytelling, how did i miss that it's actually better than the series, more emotionally intense, more powerful?
it is The Story. the only story i'm really engaged so deeply in. it is my story, and it is the story of one's Self finding Light, and hope, and purpose. even more than the series, it's laden with symbolism and transcendental imagery and... just... painful amounts of beauty and hope.
it was a little heavy-handed sometimes, but it was just so beautifully done, and so heart-felt, i just can't quibble with it. and... van..! *dies* Seki Tomokazu (his voice actor) rocks my world. his scene... that dream-like sequence where he "breaks" and hitomi tells him (again) she'll stay with him. the way his voice breaks. oh... gahd. in ``fruits basket", that scene in the end with kyou has got to be one of my favorite moments in anime ever, and it was all because of that voice, being all broken and emotional, and he's kamui, in X, too..! (i'm in love with him...! he did like, all my favorite-sounding characters, it seems like. the only other one who comes close is Hikaru Midorikawa, who did heero, in gundam wing, and tamahome in fushigi yuugi.)
mind you, i'm not squeeing. this movie meant so much to me, touched me so deeply, i'm not about to tell you it "rocked my socks" or anything. just. van's voice. if you heard it, you'd understand.
i was pissed off when in the end, where she gets her wings and... stuff... people (in our anime club) laughed. *cries* they have no heart. hmf. is it just too embarrassing to be touched emotionally, in public...? what...?
*sigh*
btw, here's a wallpaper of hitomi & feathers. and there's van with a sword.... gah. addiction threatens. *runs away*
i think i'm back in my anime-crazed groove. the medium-- especially when done this well-- completely overwhelms me, on so many levels. like, the script-- the actual words-- are completely transparent and not that important, except in songs. it's all about -voice- and -vision- and -immersion- and i just... i'm like, built for that. but anyway.
~~
was thinking, earlier, of harry/cho. seems unimportant now.
i was just thinking, i'd really like to dare some of my favorite fanfic writers to just, write a good harry/cho.
because the weird thing is, it doesn't squick me.
oh, it's not OTP or whatever. but. i mean, it's inoffensive to me. i don't know why.
it bothers me slightly, because so few people seem to care that harry thinks he wants her. why does everyone think they know better than harry? it's annoying, sort of. why not give her to him? (er. was that ...old-fashioned and offensive of me..? hmm.)
i was kinda going,
``hey, harry, mah man.
i'm with ya, buddy. you can count on me.
i'm there for ya. here ya go, man.
enjoy."
aren't i nice??
but i don't think i can write it. *sniff* oh well. i don't think i want to do fluff -that- mindless.
~~
in other news. i've got an idea for `Luminary', how to make it more believable. go me.
~~
and yes, i made an escaflowne default icon. *sigh* i just had to...
and, to reiterate. van and hitomi: so otp i can't even believe it.
i think this single-handedly convinced me that my het-muse has some fire in her yet, old girl.
they're so powerful, so real, so beyond stupid ``hetness" and gender debates. say van didn't swing that way. say he liked allen. that would be so wrong wouldn't it?? gah.
and hitomi-- there's no way she's male, or could be re-written as male. it just wouldn't work, for me.
it -is- about love. about character. dammit.
i'm not so much a slasher. i'm just a silly old romantic after all....
EDIT~~ see, now you could say-- see, reena is a sucker for ``doomed love" and ``star-crossed" pairings and stuff. do i want angst..?
well. it's not that, i think. that's not the beauty of it.
this, and every other love-story that has ever meant a lot to me, is about meeting that One Person. and when you meet them, everything falls into place, and you become more-- different-- changed, when you're together. they touch you for one moment, and that one moment is all that matters, that Moment, when you know you're not alone anymore. how many people really have that, even with decades of living with someone?
do i want them to be ``together", in the traditional sense? well, of course.
but i think doom is really short-sighted, if it's only referring to the future, like the future is all-important, like there is such a thing as endings, even though appearances tell you there are.
just as hitomi says, "we'll be together, always."
and van just sort of laughs, and looks at her fondly.
but it's true. she disappears, yes, as soon as she hears The Song, and gets her own wings--
but that's more metaphor than anything else.
when you really touch someone deeply like that, yes, you are together, always.
there is no Doom, if you really loved someone.
that moment-- it exists always, in the hearts of the lover & the beloved.
that peace within yourself-- nothing can touch it. once you throw off the false fears and the pain of loneliness, once you believe-- not even death can change that. you have wings. you are free.
that's what i want for draco and harry-- that's what i want in every love story.
ah yes, feel the redemptionista moving in.
that's why deathfics and darkfics bother me, in a way...while they're beautiful, usually (notice, i said, usually) they fail to address this eternal, timeless nature of love.
``and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?"
~~enya
i've seen it before, you see. but, this wasn't a third-rate copy, and it was a large screen, and... and...
a bit weepy still...
the music.... is just astonishingly good, haunting, beautiful, painful, delicate and it weaves this spell around you. especially with good speakers... it just really grabbed me and wouldn't let me go. and, i'm in love with van. and... the animation is better than princess mononoke, and better than the last vampire hunter d, and better than... a lot of things.
van... van.... is just.
when i first saw it, it was relatively near to my watching of the series, so i was kind of comparing and contrasting, whether i wanted to or not, and i don't think that was helpful. but now... half a year later... oh... my... gahd.
how did i miss that it was/is like, an amazing grand piece of animated storytelling, how did i miss that it's actually better than the series, more emotionally intense, more powerful?
it is The Story. the only story i'm really engaged so deeply in. it is my story, and it is the story of one's Self finding Light, and hope, and purpose. even more than the series, it's laden with symbolism and transcendental imagery and... just... painful amounts of beauty and hope.
it was a little heavy-handed sometimes, but it was just so beautifully done, and so heart-felt, i just can't quibble with it. and... van..! *dies* Seki Tomokazu (his voice actor) rocks my world. his scene... that dream-like sequence where he "breaks" and hitomi tells him (again) she'll stay with him. the way his voice breaks. oh... gahd. in ``fruits basket", that scene in the end with kyou has got to be one of my favorite moments in anime ever, and it was all because of that voice, being all broken and emotional, and he's kamui, in X, too..! (i'm in love with him...! he did like, all my favorite-sounding characters, it seems like. the only other one who comes close is Hikaru Midorikawa, who did heero, in gundam wing, and tamahome in fushigi yuugi.)
mind you, i'm not squeeing. this movie meant so much to me, touched me so deeply, i'm not about to tell you it "rocked my socks" or anything. just. van's voice. if you heard it, you'd understand.
i was pissed off when in the end, where she gets her wings and... stuff... people (in our anime club) laughed. *cries* they have no heart. hmf. is it just too embarrassing to be touched emotionally, in public...? what...?
*sigh*
btw, here's a wallpaper of hitomi & feathers. and there's van with a sword.... gah. addiction threatens. *runs away*
i think i'm back in my anime-crazed groove. the medium-- especially when done this well-- completely overwhelms me, on so many levels. like, the script-- the actual words-- are completely transparent and not that important, except in songs. it's all about -voice- and -vision- and -immersion- and i just... i'm like, built for that. but anyway.
~~
was thinking, earlier, of harry/cho. seems unimportant now.
i was just thinking, i'd really like to dare some of my favorite fanfic writers to just, write a good harry/cho.
because the weird thing is, it doesn't squick me.
oh, it's not OTP or whatever. but. i mean, it's inoffensive to me. i don't know why.
it bothers me slightly, because so few people seem to care that harry thinks he wants her. why does everyone think they know better than harry? it's annoying, sort of. why not give her to him? (er. was that ...old-fashioned and offensive of me..? hmm.)
i was kinda going,
``hey, harry, mah man.
i'm with ya, buddy. you can count on me.
i'm there for ya. here ya go, man.
enjoy."
aren't i nice??
but i don't think i can write it. *sniff* oh well. i don't think i want to do fluff -that- mindless.
~~
in other news. i've got an idea for `Luminary', how to make it more believable. go me.
~~
and yes, i made an escaflowne default icon. *sigh* i just had to...
and, to reiterate. van and hitomi: so otp i can't even believe it.
i think this single-handedly convinced me that my het-muse has some fire in her yet, old girl.
they're so powerful, so real, so beyond stupid ``hetness" and gender debates. say van didn't swing that way. say he liked allen. that would be so wrong wouldn't it?? gah.
and hitomi-- there's no way she's male, or could be re-written as male. it just wouldn't work, for me.
it -is- about love. about character. dammit.
i'm not so much a slasher. i'm just a silly old romantic after all....
EDIT~~ see, now you could say-- see, reena is a sucker for ``doomed love" and ``star-crossed" pairings and stuff. do i want angst..?
well. it's not that, i think. that's not the beauty of it.
this, and every other love-story that has ever meant a lot to me, is about meeting that One Person. and when you meet them, everything falls into place, and you become more-- different-- changed, when you're together. they touch you for one moment, and that one moment is all that matters, that Moment, when you know you're not alone anymore. how many people really have that, even with decades of living with someone?
do i want them to be ``together", in the traditional sense? well, of course.
but i think doom is really short-sighted, if it's only referring to the future, like the future is all-important, like there is such a thing as endings, even though appearances tell you there are.
just as hitomi says, "we'll be together, always."
and van just sort of laughs, and looks at her fondly.
but it's true. she disappears, yes, as soon as she hears The Song, and gets her own wings--
but that's more metaphor than anything else.
when you really touch someone deeply like that, yes, you are together, always.
there is no Doom, if you really loved someone.
that moment-- it exists always, in the hearts of the lover & the beloved.
that peace within yourself-- nothing can touch it. once you throw off the false fears and the pain of loneliness, once you believe-- not even death can change that. you have wings. you are free.
that's what i want for draco and harry-- that's what i want in every love story.
ah yes, feel the redemptionista moving in.
that's why deathfics and darkfics bother me, in a way...while they're beautiful, usually (notice, i said, usually) they fail to address this eternal, timeless nature of love.
``and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?"
~~enya
