~~fic alert...! ack. & other rantings
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reenkai'm like, so wired. before i was tense. so i wrote a ficlet... yes, a ficlet..!! read, read pleasepleaseplease (*dies*)... er....here:
||~~Luminary~~||
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vanityfair, even though it's not worthy, i was so so stoked hearing her sing 'luminous crush', and i just had to write something inspired by it, and somewhat inspired by a reference to heero staring into the sun. ahh... perfect. i love that image. anyway. lotsa staring and curses and silences and hate and love and...stuff. yeah.
i'm so, so wired. gahd. before, i was tense, so i wrote that, but... then i had some soda... and now... *sighs* i should not be in public labs under these circumstances, consulting (i feel more like snarling and spinning and going lalalalala... but. i can't. am important answerer-of-questions person). ahem. and like, it's so cool 'cause i so so love giving aja something even though it's not much, but i sososo love `love under will', i doidoidoidoido. .... i do.... ~:) *wired bouncing*
um. yes. i need to mention this, i do, i do, i doidoidoidoido..!
silviakundera has killed me once again. with this fic-- and it wasn't even pointy..! or long..! or... well... h/d...! (what is the world coming to???! *screams for effect* [remember, i'm wired, don't harass the wired person])
twincest. i have now loffed (and fangirled..!) twincest. in the play format (i greatly dislike and never read the play format if i can help it. ah yes. see pure dialogue and stage cues... see reena run. run, reena, run..!) is nothing sacred???!! but..! i will NOT, i repeat not read ginny and/or hermione with draco and/or harry. no matter who writes it...er... well...*wibbles*... er.... ok, unless it's cassandra claire. i'm working up to it *sticks out tongue* but. but no one else..! ack..! there's only so much i can take, ya know.....
and now for something completely different...
[rant-mode, on]
i'm not wiccan. if you asked me directly, i would say i'm atheist, and be gleeful in my rejection. the goddess lives inside me, but i will deny it to the bitter end, heh. i have my principles you know, mostly to do with evolution & the naturalness of our origins, and things being able to come from nothing, blah blah. i'm a bit soft on the Goddess though. read too much `dawn' (linsner strikes again. yes i blame this on him too, heh), i guess.
i still kind of stare at people with interest, and feel muchly intrigued and pleased, if i see someone wear a pentagram. mm, magic-users unite..!
so anyway. today on the bus i saw this pair of people (obviously wiccan-- see the pentagram), holding a conversation with these two uniformed mormons (see the badges...!). was trying not to laugh, or feel too disgusted, one or the other. wiccans proselityzing is a bit... freaky and wrong, isn't it? especially all that feel-good stuff about how all gods are one and christianity is secretly a bit of a lost branch of the Old Religion.
``All religions overlap," the v. large Native American woman says, nodding.
``Truth is everywhere," intone the snappily dressed mormon evangelists, what with the gold-tone watches, and i feel queasy.
``We are all the same people, the same feelings. all religions come from the greatness of what you believe," she says in that pbs sort of tone she has.
This is why the more... exotic branches of magic-using pagans look down on wiccans isn't it? makes them look like a bunch of granola-munching tree-hugging yoda wannabes.
``All that... blood," says the wiccan woman's male companion, he of the fat legs and fishing hat, grimacing with extreme distaste as he speaks of those icky satanists with the blood and the not-love. his education was obviously indepth.
initially, i was fighting the urge to speak up, tell them that i'd love to meet more people in the Way, meet other wiccans, come visit so to speak. i didn't. i'm glad. i don't want to be disappointed with my first coven experience. not that i want to join, mind you, but face it, there are a lot more easily accessible wiccans around than say-- chaos magick practitioners. not that magicians even have covens. you take what you can get.
but if i wanted feel-good "god is a part of all of us" stuff, i'd be a unitarian and be done with it. it's so scary, thinking even like-minded people aren't going to feel "right", aren't going to understand.
i wish i was wiccan. things would be so much easier. but i'm not, and nothing is easy except mindless word and image channeling, and maybe breathing. the Goddess is not equivalent to the christian god. i hope not anyway. that's just pointless, then. if you think that, why are you wiccan? if your god is both male and female & everything else in the bargain, what use is your Way to you, if all ways are one? oh, excuse me, except satanism.
*sighs*
well. um. i'm kinda ranted out by now, and am starting to de-buzz and come down (more coke, more coke...!)
just as well. heh. i hope i haven't offended any wiccans (though i doubt it). i only bother 'cause i care, etcetc. me=willow wannabe, everyone knows that ^.^
heheh. even better if i get tara in the bargain. well, not-dead!tara, of course ;P yeah. because i'm lame, and omg, but willow and tara..! yum...!
erm. i'll just shut up now. plebeness... overwhelming... sensors.....
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||~~Luminary~~||
this is for
vanityfair, even though it's not worthy, i was so so stoked hearing her sing 'luminous crush', and i just had to write something inspired by it, and somewhat inspired by a reference to heero staring into the sun. ahh... perfect. i love that image. anyway. lotsa staring and curses and silences and hate and love and...stuff. yeah.i'm so, so wired. gahd. before, i was tense, so i wrote that, but... then i had some soda... and now... *sighs* i should not be in public labs under these circumstances, consulting (i feel more like snarling and spinning and going lalalalala... but. i can't. am important answerer-of-questions person). ahem. and like, it's so cool 'cause i so so love giving aja something even though it's not much, but i sososo love `love under will', i doidoidoidoido. .... i do.... ~:) *wired bouncing*
um. yes. i need to mention this, i do, i do, i doidoidoidoido..!
silviakundera has killed me once again. with this fic-- and it wasn't even pointy..! or long..! or... well... h/d...! (what is the world coming to???! *screams for effect* [remember, i'm wired, don't harass the wired person])twincest. i have now loffed (and fangirled..!) twincest. in the play format (i greatly dislike and never read the play format if i can help it. ah yes. see pure dialogue and stage cues... see reena run. run, reena, run..!) is nothing sacred???!! but..! i will NOT, i repeat not read ginny and/or hermione with draco and/or harry. no matter who writes it...er... well...*wibbles*... er.... ok, unless it's cassandra claire. i'm working up to it *sticks out tongue* but. but no one else..! ack..! there's only so much i can take, ya know.....
and now for something completely different...
[rant-mode, on]
i'm not wiccan. if you asked me directly, i would say i'm atheist, and be gleeful in my rejection. the goddess lives inside me, but i will deny it to the bitter end, heh. i have my principles you know, mostly to do with evolution & the naturalness of our origins, and things being able to come from nothing, blah blah. i'm a bit soft on the Goddess though. read too much `dawn' (linsner strikes again. yes i blame this on him too, heh), i guess.
i still kind of stare at people with interest, and feel muchly intrigued and pleased, if i see someone wear a pentagram. mm, magic-users unite..!
so anyway. today on the bus i saw this pair of people (obviously wiccan-- see the pentagram), holding a conversation with these two uniformed mormons (see the badges...!). was trying not to laugh, or feel too disgusted, one or the other. wiccans proselityzing is a bit... freaky and wrong, isn't it? especially all that feel-good stuff about how all gods are one and christianity is secretly a bit of a lost branch of the Old Religion.
``All religions overlap," the v. large Native American woman says, nodding.
``Truth is everywhere," intone the snappily dressed mormon evangelists, what with the gold-tone watches, and i feel queasy.
``We are all the same people, the same feelings. all religions come from the greatness of what you believe," she says in that pbs sort of tone she has.
This is why the more... exotic branches of magic-using pagans look down on wiccans isn't it? makes them look like a bunch of granola-munching tree-hugging yoda wannabes.
``All that... blood," says the wiccan woman's male companion, he of the fat legs and fishing hat, grimacing with extreme distaste as he speaks of those icky satanists with the blood and the not-love. his education was obviously indepth.
initially, i was fighting the urge to speak up, tell them that i'd love to meet more people in the Way, meet other wiccans, come visit so to speak. i didn't. i'm glad. i don't want to be disappointed with my first coven experience. not that i want to join, mind you, but face it, there are a lot more easily accessible wiccans around than say-- chaos magick practitioners. not that magicians even have covens. you take what you can get.
but if i wanted feel-good "god is a part of all of us" stuff, i'd be a unitarian and be done with it. it's so scary, thinking even like-minded people aren't going to feel "right", aren't going to understand.
i wish i was wiccan. things would be so much easier. but i'm not, and nothing is easy except mindless word and image channeling, and maybe breathing. the Goddess is not equivalent to the christian god. i hope not anyway. that's just pointless, then. if you think that, why are you wiccan? if your god is both male and female & everything else in the bargain, what use is your Way to you, if all ways are one? oh, excuse me, except satanism.
*sighs*
well. um. i'm kinda ranted out by now, and am starting to de-buzz and come down (more coke, more coke...!)
just as well. heh. i hope i haven't offended any wiccans (though i doubt it). i only bother 'cause i care, etcetc. me=willow wannabe, everyone knows that ^.^
heheh. even better if i get tara in the bargain. well, not-dead!tara, of course ;P yeah. because i'm lame, and omg, but willow and tara..! yum...!
erm. i'll just shut up now. plebeness... overwhelming... sensors.....
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