~~evil wannabe hearts....
Aug. 21st, 2002 12:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenka``All it takes for evil to triumph is for good men to do nothing."
i looked at the park, the yummy tall trees, just going by them in the bus going home as usual. and i thought-- you know-- these trees-- they're a lot like other trees-- other trees, which have been ruthlessly cut down by people over and over again over the centuries. i looked at them and couldn't imagine ever hurting them, but other people could, and did. and... well... i feel the same way about a lot of things-- i can't imagine hurting anything living-- and yet i do-- by my inaction when other people do. i enjoy the fruits of it, even. i rationalize it and all. i like my meat products, oh yes. i like my unborn chicken fetuses in the morning (urg, so late, so morbid).
i still think of people as generally good-- the people i know-- the great majority of them-- they're mostly well-meaning, even caring. of course, i filter the people i know (feel like i know)-- i.e., i don't pay as much attention to "icky" people. so. i mean. but i still think so-- still think it's weird that the world's as messed up as it is, because there are so many wonderful, caring people in it. so what's wrong?
you know what? i think that's what's wrong. people get carried away, don't they? they defend what they love, and they think they're being attacked and hurt when they're not, and they think they've got to fight when they don't. the hardest thing seems to be realizing that everyone is really like you, in the most essential way, which is that we all love, fear, distrust, worship, need, desire, and even hate. perhaps it's our "beastial" natures-- defending our territory, marking our boundaries from one another, banding together in times of need-- which is both our brightest moment and our downfall. i wonder why a fandom full of brilliant people is still plagued by discord at times-- oh yes, this is my naive hat being on. i realize everything and everywhere is plagued by discord.
on the one hand, i can blame lack of intelligence and lack of empathy to explain discord-- but obviously, discord (and misunderstanding) still happens when both intelligence and empathy are at hand. so what's wrong? i was just... asking myself that. would the world still be like it is, even if people were actually graduate-english-student intelligent, and caring and open-minded? what if the answer is yes?
and of course, my old question of, why do i have such a yen for draco, considering he's, if not evil, then a pathetic, evil-wannabe bastard, anyway. that isn't very constructive. the whole thing is full of hypocrisy on my part. i'm part of the problem. even as i'm wringing my hands, i'm contributing to the reason why i'm doing so. because i'm not doing anything. because i too, am making the same old (ancient) mistakes. not that i'm saying being vegetarian is the answer. not that i'm saying rejecting draco malfoy (noooooo! not dracoooo...!!) is the answer.
it's all a question of walling off, isn't it? we all have hearts, but we pick and choose how and where and when we use them.
that's the problem, isn't it?
it's why ``they" think harry would never love draco, isn't it?
that's what being ``unnatural" is all about, isn't it?
there's `our camp' and then there's `their camp', and our camp and their camp don't mix. they don't mingle. they cast each other baleful looks, and lets face it, they lust after each other (but hey that's just my opinion :P ...so)
if canon draco and harry didn't hate each other, if they didn't hate, what would they feel?
would it be indifference....?
i don't think so.
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um. i'd just like to take this opportunity to say, harry as a cow is just, bloody disturbing. that is all :P weeellll... ok. go ahead. send a cow postcard, see if i care *coughs*
um. well this is a silly thing to ask/wonder. but. am i a fangirl? really? i mean. no. i just ``get excited about.... things". not... i mean... not..... i just... get excited.
is the opposite of "fangirl", then, "calm and collected and reasonable-sounding admirer of fictional/cinematographical work, with possible affection for characters and plot"? i mean, it's the screaming and squealing and yelling, "aaaaaaack, draco in hotpants!!" that does me in, isn't it?? isn't it? *screams, squeals, and hides*
er. nevermind, then. not that i mind. oh no. i don't mind. i like my squeeing and squealing and the whole package, thankyouverymuch. oh yes. where would i be without it?? oh yes i know. i'd be bored, boredboredboredboredboredbored.... oh yes. bored.
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*swallows*.....
*swallows harder*.......
*tries to refrain from squealing, screaming, dying, or all three in concert*....
but......oh...my...gahd.....
*spontaneously combusts*
this is the most evil evil, evilevilevilevilevilevilevilevilevilevileeeevillll picture -ever-...!! ...! ...! ..! (*more exclamation points follow*)
harry...and draco.... oh my god, that look, oh god, oh god, oh god. i'm going to have to put that up on my wall and lick it every day :D hahahaah. erm. no i'm just saying that i don't really mean it, no of course not that'd be... that'd be embarrassing and i'd never do stuff like that because i'm really a dignified *cough* er, sane person...yeah...... the hp pr people are... are.... oh my god..... they're on to us, aren't they?? er. well, moving on....
~~
*reena backs away slowly from people who've listed ``neil gaimen" as their lj interest* ack. that's all i'll say. get back, thou infidels, back, i say, back~!! o_0;;
~~
i am extremely intelligent and very wise. i think logically and rhetorically in order to get problems solved. if i'm not mad now, i'm getting very close.
how mad are you?
this quiz was made by piksy
i looked at the park, the yummy tall trees, just going by them in the bus going home as usual. and i thought-- you know-- these trees-- they're a lot like other trees-- other trees, which have been ruthlessly cut down by people over and over again over the centuries. i looked at them and couldn't imagine ever hurting them, but other people could, and did. and... well... i feel the same way about a lot of things-- i can't imagine hurting anything living-- and yet i do-- by my inaction when other people do. i enjoy the fruits of it, even. i rationalize it and all. i like my meat products, oh yes. i like my unborn chicken fetuses in the morning (urg, so late, so morbid).
i still think of people as generally good-- the people i know-- the great majority of them-- they're mostly well-meaning, even caring. of course, i filter the people i know (feel like i know)-- i.e., i don't pay as much attention to "icky" people. so. i mean. but i still think so-- still think it's weird that the world's as messed up as it is, because there are so many wonderful, caring people in it. so what's wrong?
you know what? i think that's what's wrong. people get carried away, don't they? they defend what they love, and they think they're being attacked and hurt when they're not, and they think they've got to fight when they don't. the hardest thing seems to be realizing that everyone is really like you, in the most essential way, which is that we all love, fear, distrust, worship, need, desire, and even hate. perhaps it's our "beastial" natures-- defending our territory, marking our boundaries from one another, banding together in times of need-- which is both our brightest moment and our downfall. i wonder why a fandom full of brilliant people is still plagued by discord at times-- oh yes, this is my naive hat being on. i realize everything and everywhere is plagued by discord.
on the one hand, i can blame lack of intelligence and lack of empathy to explain discord-- but obviously, discord (and misunderstanding) still happens when both intelligence and empathy are at hand. so what's wrong? i was just... asking myself that. would the world still be like it is, even if people were actually graduate-english-student intelligent, and caring and open-minded? what if the answer is yes?
and of course, my old question of, why do i have such a yen for draco, considering he's, if not evil, then a pathetic, evil-wannabe bastard, anyway. that isn't very constructive. the whole thing is full of hypocrisy on my part. i'm part of the problem. even as i'm wringing my hands, i'm contributing to the reason why i'm doing so. because i'm not doing anything. because i too, am making the same old (ancient) mistakes. not that i'm saying being vegetarian is the answer. not that i'm saying rejecting draco malfoy (noooooo! not dracoooo...!!) is the answer.
it's all a question of walling off, isn't it? we all have hearts, but we pick and choose how and where and when we use them.
that's the problem, isn't it?
it's why ``they" think harry would never love draco, isn't it?
that's what being ``unnatural" is all about, isn't it?
there's `our camp' and then there's `their camp', and our camp and their camp don't mix. they don't mingle. they cast each other baleful looks, and lets face it, they lust after each other (but hey that's just my opinion :P ...so)
if canon draco and harry didn't hate each other, if they didn't hate, what would they feel?
would it be indifference....?
i don't think so.
~~
um. i'd just like to take this opportunity to say, harry as a cow is just, bloody disturbing. that is all :P weeellll... ok. go ahead. send a cow postcard, see if i care *coughs*
um. well this is a silly thing to ask/wonder. but. am i a fangirl? really? i mean. no. i just ``get excited about.... things". not... i mean... not..... i just... get excited.
is the opposite of "fangirl", then, "calm and collected and reasonable-sounding admirer of fictional/cinematographical work, with possible affection for characters and plot"? i mean, it's the screaming and squealing and yelling, "aaaaaaack, draco in hotpants!!" that does me in, isn't it?? isn't it? *screams, squeals, and hides*
er. nevermind, then. not that i mind. oh no. i don't mind. i like my squeeing and squealing and the whole package, thankyouverymuch. oh yes. where would i be without it?? oh yes i know. i'd be bored, boredboredboredboredboredbored.... oh yes. bored.
~~
*swallows*.....
*swallows harder*.......
*tries to refrain from squealing, screaming, dying, or all three in concert*....
but......oh...my...gahd.....
*spontaneously combusts*
this is the most evil evil, evilevilevilevilevilevilevilevilevilevileeeevillll picture -ever-...!! ...! ...! ..! (*more exclamation points follow*)
harry...and draco.... oh my god, that look, oh god, oh god, oh god. i'm going to have to put that up on my wall and lick it every day :D hahahaah. erm. no i'm just saying that i don't really mean it, no of course not that'd be... that'd be embarrassing and i'd never do stuff like that because i'm really a dignified *cough* er, sane person...yeah...... the hp pr people are... are.... oh my god..... they're on to us, aren't they?? er. well, moving on....
~~
*reena backs away slowly from people who've listed ``neil gaimen" as their lj interest* ack. that's all i'll say. get back, thou infidels, back, i say, back~!! o_0;;
~~
i am extremely intelligent and very wise. i think logically and rhetorically in order to get problems solved. if i'm not mad now, i'm getting very close.
how mad are you?
this quiz was made by piksy
