[...walk on, walk on by...]
Mar. 9th, 2006 02:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reenkaMan, I have this urge to post but few fannish things (or even interesting real-life things!) to post about. I tried with the MBTI thing, but duuude, did that go over like a lead balloon or what? Even so, I hold to the position that it's interesting-- or at least, it is to pop-psych nuts like me.
I want to ask people what they wanna see on here (besides H/D pr0n), and yet I don't wanna feel pressured so I don't. Heh. Better not to know some things. Maybe.
I also feel weird 'cause there's not that many compulsive posters on my flist (anymore); well... compulsive-posters-of-thinky-posts (not just 'update' posts, which are nice! better than never-update posts). Um. What was I saying. I think I'm saying I aspire to be like![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
lykaios when I grow up :> (And I also wanna ask people who should I friend for many thinky fannish posts, especially of the H/D variety, but yaoi/shoujo meta will do, but... eh. Then I'm like 'but adding people is scary'. -.-)
Anyway, my point was that I was picked up by a hippie today. Like... literally.
I was in Barnes & Noble to pick up a book, so of course I picked up 4, decided to stay to have my take-away as I read through the other 3, then got a chai, and then stayed until closing (it's the story of my life). I blithely assumed no one noticed me even if they looked-- I mean, there were several knots of college-age slackers here and there in the adjacent cafe-type-thing they always have in Barnes & Noble's these days-- nifty how that works, isn't it? I like to pretend I'm invisible!woman, and most times people play along (and I generally don't think too much that they're whispering about me except I suppose sometimes they are).
Naturally, I missed my bus twice, and was walking to wait for whichever one came next (this also happens often) when this woman pulls up in a car and says 'wanna ride home?'. She looked harmless, so I said 'yeay', and she said I looked 'forlorn' as I crossed the parking lot, haha. Of course, she turned out to be a 'healer'-type hippie (Reiki or something) and told me I had a very bright energy so that she couldn't help but notice, as it shone brighter than all the other erstwhile Barnes & Noble browsers. Haha.
...Man, that sort of thing always feeds into my sekrit megalomania, I swear. Wouldn't it be nice if I sekritly had this beacon of 'HAHAHA I AM COOL' even though I look like a loser? It's sort of like having a second identity as a princess!ranger. Or maybe that's just me.
I let her drive drive me all the way home even though I just wanted to go to campus, listening to her talk about her life with her house-to-house moving meditation circle (or whatever it is) and how having a child grounded her and how she's learning to verbalize things and how we assign meanings to words, did you know? (Yeah.)
I usually don't feel comfortable with strangers, but sometimes I do. It's almost enough to make me feel 'normal', though naturally it's because I have such a bright aura, hehehe.
It just goes to show you: some people are 'aloof' and 'untouchable'; I'm just... a weirdo-magnet. (But it's better than being aloof! Hahahah, I don't think anyone can seriously look at me and be like 'omg, she's just TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL'. Thank god; I'm so introverted I'd never talk to anyone if that were true, ahaha...ha.)
I want to ask people what they wanna see on here (besides H/D pr0n), and yet I don't wanna feel pressured so I don't. Heh. Better not to know some things. Maybe.
I also feel weird 'cause there's not that many compulsive posters on my flist (anymore); well... compulsive-posters-of-thinky-posts (not just 'update' posts, which are nice! better than never-update posts). Um. What was I saying. I think I'm saying I aspire to be like
lykaios when I grow up :> (And I also wanna ask people who should I friend for many thinky fannish posts, especially of the H/D variety, but yaoi/shoujo meta will do, but... eh. Then I'm like 'but adding people is scary'. -.-)Anyway, my point was that I was picked up by a hippie today. Like... literally.
I was in Barnes & Noble to pick up a book, so of course I picked up 4, decided to stay to have my take-away as I read through the other 3, then got a chai, and then stayed until closing (it's the story of my life). I blithely assumed no one noticed me even if they looked-- I mean, there were several knots of college-age slackers here and there in the adjacent cafe-type-thing they always have in Barnes & Noble's these days-- nifty how that works, isn't it? I like to pretend I'm invisible!woman, and most times people play along (and I generally don't think too much that they're whispering about me except I suppose sometimes they are).
Naturally, I missed my bus twice, and was walking to wait for whichever one came next (this also happens often) when this woman pulls up in a car and says 'wanna ride home?'. She looked harmless, so I said 'yeay', and she said I looked 'forlorn' as I crossed the parking lot, haha. Of course, she turned out to be a 'healer'-type hippie (Reiki or something) and told me I had a very bright energy so that she couldn't help but notice, as it shone brighter than all the other erstwhile Barnes & Noble browsers. Haha.
...Man, that sort of thing always feeds into my sekrit megalomania, I swear. Wouldn't it be nice if I sekritly had this beacon of 'HAHAHA I AM COOL' even though I look like a loser? It's sort of like having a second identity as a princess!ranger. Or maybe that's just me.
I let her drive drive me all the way home even though I just wanted to go to campus, listening to her talk about her life with her house-to-house moving meditation circle (or whatever it is) and how having a child grounded her and how she's learning to verbalize things and how we assign meanings to words, did you know? (Yeah.)
I usually don't feel comfortable with strangers, but sometimes I do. It's almost enough to make me feel 'normal', though naturally it's because I have such a bright aura, hehehe.
It just goes to show you: some people are 'aloof' and 'untouchable'; I'm just... a weirdo-magnet. (But it's better than being aloof! Hahahah, I don't think anyone can seriously look at me and be like 'omg, she's just TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL'. Thank god; I'm so introverted I'd never talk to anyone if that were true, ahaha...ha.)
