Yeah, I'm talking about 'shallow' or sentimental love when I say (if I say) that I don't want 'love' for H/D. Of course I want Love, I'm in love with Love-- but what most people write as love is just sentimentality and a poor reflection, and 'hate', I suppose-- to me, in that context, it's just another way to add complexity and intensity. It's exactly that-- trying to be honest, searching for meaning, searching for 'something that goes deeper', in spite of darkness, that thrives in the most inhospitable environment and is therefore more real. I probably go overboard sometimes 'cause I'm still attracted to all forms of romanticism, so when I write a 'cute' or affectionate/fluffy H/D fic (and I do!), I feel like I'm slipping or something. *eyeroll* I have this need for things to always be deep and meaningful that even I can't keep up with :>
And mostly I don't comment on anyone's ljs these days since I've pretty much not been 'here' if by here you mean active presence on lj/fandom. ^^; Meep. Either reading fantasy books or (before recently) obsessing with the INFP forum. Ah well, that part's over, at least. I feel more comfortable expressing myself at my lj, where even if people get offended/confused and misunderstand, I feel I have a right to say whatever 'cause it's -my- lj.
(Christ, the Denial of Service attack thing is getting out of control, seriously.)
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Date: 2007-06-02 10:25 pm (UTC)And mostly I don't comment on anyone's ljs these days since I've pretty much not been 'here' if by here you mean active presence on lj/fandom. ^^; Meep. Either reading fantasy books or (before recently) obsessing with the INFP forum. Ah well, that part's over, at least. I feel more comfortable expressing myself at my lj, where even if people get offended/confused and misunderstand, I feel I have a right to say whatever 'cause it's -my- lj.
(Christ, the Denial of Service attack thing is getting out of control, seriously.)