Oh man o_0 I feel myself bending under the weight of your reasonableness and conviction :)) The call of Harry's growing pains is hard to resist, and oh, oh, I hope he has more formative angst in book 7, though perhaps he won't have -time-, and. And. Ohhhh I WANT BOOK 7 NOW :(( Um. I love your vision of Dumbledore manipulating him (perhaps-- though I did really enjoy and admire Dumbly in this book)-- though he did the deciding to be a good boy for Sirius by himself. A "pose of frankness", huh. *clings to hope* Man. All I can say is, I REALLY HOPE SO. And I suppose that's enough to work it into fanfic, though I've still no clue how o_0 o_0 I had such an instinctive understanding of Harry's mental state at the end of OoTP, and nothing like that at the end of HBP. Mer.
With Draco... it's much more complicated for me, because of his much lesser focus on Harry, and their mutual shifting dynamic and relationship with each other. That's what really upset me, as H/D-ish as this book was. In retrospect, I feel like... they're further away from each other than ever, 'cause while Harry was obsessed with Draco's evil-doing, it was a similar mystery-obsession as his fixation on Sirius in PoA or on the Ministry corridor in OoTP. It being Draco gave it a personal stake, a reason to suspect strongly and a sense of outrage, etc, but it... oh, I dunno. I feel like he was approaching it differently, less immaturely??! And Draco definitely was too distracted for Harry in HBP, and that also makes me lose touch with the obsessiveness that's fed my own-- like, in my head, he'd have done all this to get at Harry, but I don't think he did. Like, I dunno to what extent he was even aware of Harry in HBP. :/
I do think both of them are on an important personal journey, I just dunno what I think of them -together- right now, if that makes sense, and what, precisely, they need each other for in the romantic sense. Before, that wasn't really a question I could -ask-, since even though Harry seemed 'beyond' Malfoy in OoTP, that didn't matter, because the strength of Draco's passion was focused on him and that's what drove the whole wagon. Draco practically threw himself at Harry in every book, and HBP, they didn't even have a two-sentence conversation. They were still focussed with each other, but in an impersonal way, if that makes sense-- even when Harry realized Malfoy was human too, it was... it was like partly overcoming his personal bias rather than reforming it into something else, precisely. I dunno.
And I don't like the idea they'll keep changing outside each other's direct influence, that they're... not in orbit anymore. Like, they have v. different development goals, too-- Harry has to become a better hero, in simplistic terms, whereas might be on the way to being an antihero of sorts, someone on the sidelines but with his own agenda, not really like Snape, with his iffy allegiances... more like a private agent. I dunno, it's not like this is a logical reading of canon, it's just my own vision & it's a bit dismal to me :/
I do get what you're saying about them still being 17 and faced with "consequences disproportionate to their experience"-- I mean, separately. But what brings them together? *sigh* But then, in this case, I'm pretty sure I'm being a mopey pessimist :>
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Date: 2005-08-28 11:31 pm (UTC)With Draco... it's much more complicated for me, because of his much lesser focus on Harry, and their mutual shifting dynamic and relationship with each other. That's what really upset me, as H/D-ish as this book was. In retrospect, I feel like... they're further away from each other than ever, 'cause while Harry was obsessed with Draco's evil-doing, it was a similar mystery-obsession as his fixation on Sirius in PoA or on the Ministry corridor in OoTP. It being Draco gave it a personal stake, a reason to suspect strongly and a sense of outrage, etc, but it... oh, I dunno. I feel like he was approaching it differently, less immaturely??! And Draco definitely was too distracted for Harry in HBP, and that also makes me lose touch with the obsessiveness that's fed my own-- like, in my head, he'd have done all this to get at Harry, but I don't think he did. Like, I dunno to what extent he was even aware of Harry in HBP. :/
I do think both of them are on an important personal journey, I just dunno what I think of them -together- right now, if that makes sense, and what, precisely, they need each other for in the romantic sense. Before, that wasn't really a question I could -ask-, since even though Harry seemed 'beyond' Malfoy in OoTP, that didn't matter, because the strength of Draco's passion was focused on him and that's what drove the whole wagon. Draco practically threw himself at Harry in every book, and HBP, they didn't even have a two-sentence conversation. They were still focussed with each other, but in an impersonal way, if that makes sense-- even when Harry realized Malfoy was human too, it was... it was like partly overcoming his personal bias rather than reforming it into something else, precisely. I dunno.
And I don't like the idea they'll keep changing outside each other's direct influence, that they're... not in orbit anymore. Like, they have v. different development goals, too-- Harry has to become a better hero, in simplistic terms, whereas might be on the way to being an antihero of sorts, someone on the sidelines but with his own agenda, not really like Snape, with his iffy allegiances... more like a private agent. I dunno, it's not like this is a logical reading of canon, it's just my own vision & it's a bit dismal to me :/
I do get what you're saying about them still being 17 and faced with "consequences disproportionate to their experience"-- I mean, separately. But what brings them together? *sigh* But then, in this case, I'm pretty sure I'm being a mopey pessimist :>