"look at my works, ye Mighty..."

Man, I miss all my Sandman volumes sometimes... though not my old 60+ Star Trek novels, hahah. I can't even imagine getting them from my mom's apt... talk about embarrassing. I was just reading through this sort of metatastic post on despair and of course I thought of Despair. Heh, I used to identify with her & Delirium quite a lot... but well, they're kinda flip-sides of the same coin, though I suppose this leaves Desire in the lurch. Well, maybe Desire's first, Delirium second, and Despair last. That is to say, Death is really last, but then she's also first; heheh you can tell that Sandman is like, my most ideal story ever, right? It's still up there-- my #1-- and it's weird, but I've never liked Neil's other work nearly as much. It's like The Sandman was just too perfect a fusion of story & writer, or something, and once you hit that sort of level, anything else is bound to disappoint. Or maybe that's just me, the person who's never been able to read any other Arthur&Merlin retelling after deciding at age 12-13 that Mary Stewart's Merlin was perfect (funny how I love fanfic and fairy-tale retellings so much, but then I don't usually think of any story as 'perfect', thank god... though I did sort of also lose interest in H/S for awhile after reading thisveryinstant's 'Truth'. As far as post-OoTP H/S goes, it's close enough to perfect for me).

I love that post's idea that despair is universal, unlike love-- either you know "it" or you don't. I was actually asking myself whether I could be absolutely sure I've felt "it", though, because... I think once you're out of it, it's hard to recall exactly. It fades, the way any intense emotion does, until you sort of recall it like a fugue of temporary insanity, sort of a black hole that sucks in normal memories and leaves you with vague impressions and shadows.

All this because I followed jahbulon from the latest xkcd strip post where he picked on one of those 'first comment!' people & replied to someone saying 'Who am I to judge' asking if they're sentient :D
    Anyway, this sent me on a tangent 'cause...
    ( I can't help myself ^^; )

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Anyway, uh, speaking of vids-- I'm guessing my flist isn't as enthusiastic as I am (but then that's probably a good thing), but... I've just found really cute & well-done (*SHOCK*!!) HP Harry-centric gen vids by ashinae, here :D :D :D OMG DAN IS SO WEE & ADORABLE IN FIRST YEAR when he isn't talking especially <3<3<3 It's really sort of sad that I'm still so easily stricken with pure adoration, but... AAAHHHH HARRY <33333333333333333333 :((
    I would almost stop plugging away at my WIPs sometimes, but then it's like... my baby :(( I CAN'T HELP IT :(( I'll prolly write gen every now and then even when the H/D mojo's left me :( Haha, I don't even have the excuse of thinking he's oh-so 'interesting' as a character or 'hot' or even 'fun/easy to write'... hell, my Harry characterization never feels quite right even to me, so it's always frustrating on some level. I totally write him just to express my love ♥. ...And yeah, 'Like Home', the R/S one, is also awesome. *sigh* Man, it makes my Remus fic gestate faster. Maybe in another year it'll finally get born. :> Y'know, the song ('Chocolate' by Snow Patrol) really helps me understand why R/T would eventually happen if R/S also did, just in terms of emotional logic. Poor Remus; it totally makes sense that he only loved Sirius 'like that' but it's not like... it's not like he expected anything.

    What have I done it's too late for that
    What have I become truth is nothing yet
    A simple mistake starts the hardest time
    I promise I'll do anything you ask...this time

PS: Am currently watching The Sentinel vids *___* And I just have to say. They are... SO gay. I mean in canon. So gay. I know everyone thinks that about 'their' show, but I AM NOT KIDDING!!1 The OC? NOT GAY. Supernatural? NOT GAY. NOTHING IS GAY LIKE THIS, NOT EVEN BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN IS THIS GAY, ALL RIGHT *_____________* ...well, nothing except possibly, uh, pop boybands... and, okay, QAF *___*