[mrarf?]

Man, skimming through ljsecret makes me feel all weird, like I'm 16 again.

I don't have anything like that to say, though I've felt or done several of the things other people say. I think when I feel something bursting inside me, like it's gonna cut me up if I keep it in, I write a poem or a story. If I'm frustrated, if I want to fall in love, if I want to confess, if I want someone to want me, anything-- I can just write it. I'm not sure if this is a secret or not, or does every writer do it? It's like, all these pictures&words are creative, cathartic, and I wonder how you could do it once and not do it all the time. And I also wonder why it's enough for me and not enough for them, but then I remember that 'enough', in my terms, is basically 'enough not to go crazy', and that's probably not a good measure.

This reminds me of anony!memes and such, and how people distrust them and dislike them but I don't, really. I think the urge to say something anonymously, the urge to lie about yourself, the urge to tell the truth and hide the truth all at once-- that is, at heart, the creative urge before it's fully blossomed. I think creativity has something to do with letting go of secrets you didn't know about and the secrets you can never quite tell if you did-- there's that definite purging, cathartic element alongside the storytelling, though for some the storytelling's more important and for some the catharsis.

Looking at ljsecret, it just strikes me that it's not just people who self-identify as writers or artists-- so many of us have these -things-, these obsessions, the words that won't come through normal channels. I think that's what all creative writing feels like, storytelling or cathartic in nature-- it's using that other channel.

( ...mrarf. )

I also love this quote and think it's appropriate:
Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage.
- Anaïs Nin
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In much happier news, wobblygobblin just made me deleriously happy with her pregnant!winged!Draco & vampire!banshee!Harry<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 I think this is currently my fave H/D pic of ALL TIME.

MY LOFF KNOWS NO BOUNDS *_______*!!1 XD