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There's nothing quite like the silliness of sitting there and asking yourself, 'am I a fangirl? is this a fangirl journal? what am I doing here? where I am going with this line of questioning?' (See, I can't resist the meta... it eats at me... like corrosive acid... it possesses my brain... it shuts off my main personality and shunts it all into a sort of staring-off-into-space state where I ask silly questions of myself).

I don't actually have any journals I'd consider 'fangirl' journals friended (I think...?) at this point, but I am a fangirl, rather. I'm sort of a fanfic/fanart fangirl-- I like to squee over stuff I think's brilliant within the community that produced it. In terms of different source material-- I dunno if I'm an anime fangirl or a fantasy-lit fangirl, 'cause while I have extreme enthusiasm (...to say the least), I don't feel the urge to actually squee in a social setting. Like, I go to my school's anime club and I really enjoy seeing the anime with other people-- it's nice to know they're there-- but it's not like we ever discuss it (wouldn't that be too much like class...?) and it's not like I want to just... hang out later (and wouldn't know how to ask). I know I'm a freak, okay.

I remember starting this as a fangirl journal-- I wanted to rec and rec and keep a record of everything I found that I liked. I still kind of do that sporadically (which is more than most 'fangirl' journals do, since there are now central hubs for that sort of thing like rec communities or people who're self-declared Head Reccers) so just personal squeeing has gone way down, methinks. I mean, I wanted to be a resource in so far as I wanted at least someone to find the links useful at first, but it's not like I ever cared about 'the community' and its 'needs'. Man, I think I just got too verbose to be a fangirl. Fangirls, by definition, shouldn't get too serious, right? I'm not sure; I do like the 'fun fun fun!!' philosophy, though. I've lost sight of it, somewhat, though it's kinda being helped along by all the S/R fic.

So like... hey. Just curious how many of you think you're fangirls, still (um... not necessarily HP). What does it take, anyway? Anyone...? Bueller...?

PS OMG Some girl just said the words 'Harry Potter fandom' in my lab just now!!! OMG I AM SQUEEING LIKE MAD!!! OMG!!!
...okay I'm a fangirl in remission, then... :>