(lover's walk)

I think I have some kind of... y'know... issue with fluffy cuteness right now. Which is just kinda weird 'cause I can burst with it like nobody's business, but. See. Fluffy/cute things... people... stories... it's like, if there's no sekrit dark ugly angsty underbelly you're ignoring-but-aware-of, it's just... empty, isn't it? Just all, happy-joy-joy with no real -reason- or contrast, so it's all empty and fake and stupid like pink wallpaper and plastic angels.

It's great when it's funny (because funny makes everything all right!), but. When it's just... 'yeay shiny!!' all the way, I get all... resentful and bitter. I'm like, split, I suppose. On the one hand, I'm pretty ditzy & silly, but I'm not what you'd call a happy shiny person. I shouldn't feel bad that happy shiny people freak me out, should I? I mean. Meh. Just feels fake, all sugary-sweet till it rots your teeth, without that tang of sour. All... drugged out on antidepressants or something, and I don't want to live my life happy like that, not if it means I'm -always- happy. Who wants to be always happy? Why would anyone seriously want to act like they're always happy if they're not hiding something?

( Meh? )

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EDIT - So, in honor (*snerk*) of my unfluffy mood, I thought I'd post a drabble I wrote a week ago and was too disturbed/embarrassed by to post publically at the time, about undead!Harry risen from the grave to um... 'get' Draco. Muwahahahaha!!

( `Lover's Walk' - H/D - horror!drabble )

~~ le pimpin'.

It seems like the H/D cuteness is out to get me. I've been kinda anti-fluff lately, but I'm not inhuman, y'know. The little pretty yummies are popping up everywhere! Like... I just read stellabelle's `Posh Bastards Have More Fun', which is absolutely -priceless-. Omg, almost every sentence is a complete gem of hilarity. I've not read anything this yummy boy-crushy since Silvia last wrote H/D <333333 Wah!

Enmity. Abhorrence. Spite. A complete lack of accordant behavior. Call it what you will. But absolutely do not call it carefully disguised lust, or Draco Malfoy will have your spleen removed from your body with a paring knife.

Omg, I'm so dead. It's been done before, but well... it can never be done enough, when it's this spot-on. Dude. Go. Snicker at the dork!Draco. <3 Yes, we all know he'd want you to.

See, see... I love dork!Draco so much, it's hard to really reconcile myself to the fact that I can't write angstfic with him, y'know. *sigh* The poor boy, he's not well, is he?? <3333333333333333
    I just. Can't quite... believe in a non-raging non-wacked Draco. Like... if he's thinking with his, y'know, frontal lobe, what fun is he?? Heh. And also, we already have Snape, don't we? Do we need another character who represses through droll humor? It's kinda sad, I know, 'cause I'm nowhere near this picky with Harry characterizations, say. I think I just... love Draco, but a very specific Draco, whereas with Harry I'm just a slut, pretty much. Is it weird to love a character madly in one form, and kind of despise him in another? Well, that's me and Draco. Canon!Draco can annoy me (but makes me think of ferret!sex at the same time)... but that droll, in-control, non-spazzy ice-prince fanon!Draco... I seriously empathize with potter_mouth. He needs a boot up his arse. A big boot.

Also, it occurs to me that I'm given to be meaner to straight!Draco than gay!Draco or bisexual!Draco. Hmm. I wonder why. I think it's like... that toppish aggressiveness he does have... if it's not curbed by something (and hopefully it's not Hermione, though that... is a special case, ahahah because all the D/Hr I've read had her being butch and Draco bottoming, and my penchant for Draco!torture emerges). Anyway, ahahah, man. Straight!Draco reminds me of my ex too much, that's what it comes down to; therefore... let's just say I don't hold back...... *issues*

In other news, I'm plotting how to have potter_mouth's babies even now. The snark needs to grow... to multiply... to live. Muwhahah...ha.

Also: I buckled & did a drawble of girl!Harry, even though I have too much else on my plate to write that right now. It's kinda how s/he was in my head, heheh. I hope it doesn't look too much like Hermione, man ^^;;

( Drawble pic - Girl!Harry <3 )

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EDIT - OMG, greeksong's H&D-in-a-tree drawble OWNS MY SOUL. :X :X :X :X!!1 Also, I think she just made me love Ron/Draco ♥♥♥♥♥