[bleh]

"Of the Seven Deadly Sins, anger is possibly the most fun. To lick your wounds, to smack your lips over grievances long past, to roll over your tongue the prospect of bitter confrontations still to come, to savor to the last toothsome morsel both the pain you are given and the pain you are giving back -- in many ways it is a feast fit for a king. The chief drawback is that what you are wolfing down is yourself. The skeleton at the feast is you." - Frederick Buechner

I love that quote, man.

( Eh. I decided it doesn't really need commentary. )

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I'm really liking the Rentboy!Malfoy fic by shaggirl-- which, for some reason, is one of the very very few I stumble across without trying-- but... heh. It reminds me how I can't really enjoy writing angry!humiliating!H/D myself (though I can read it). If I ever could. This whole "life is rage" phenomenon has always been the driving emotion behind H/D for me, but I think it's gotten more difficult for me to really enjoy it. I've never wanted to really see them hurt. I don't enjoy hurting them. And yet... it's hard not to, considering their situation.

( Actually, one should consider everything I say about H/D to be bullshit, henceforth. Nevermind, nevermind. )

...Don't worry, I sound like a lunatic to myself, too. That is, when I'm not beating my chest and growling, or something. Yeah. The problem with me is... okay, the problem is... everything has to be either Very Deep or Very Funny. And if it's neither, it had better be -good- porn. Pretty much. Yeah.