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The thing that really bothers me is how everything comes down to the lowest common denominator when it's a group activity, when it's appreciated -by- groups or -in- groups. Like... even porn can be... visceral, intense, meaningful... not just about getting off. Or at least, one gets off, but it's not... tawdry, it's not -stupid- until it's a mass event, it seems like. The popular stuff, the stuff that gets the biggest feedback numbers... it's not that it's bad. It's just that it's... made bad by the way it's trampled on, maybe. Suddenly, it's all about the superficial pleasure in it. Does it make you feel good? You can bet it'll be popular if it's not already. Is it easy to swallow and quick to please? Oh, it'll be a hit.

( When porn & wank become synonymous, and not in the good way... what you really need is an... um. Gag. )

It is at this point that people would say "I really need (another) hobby", which is why I've avoided H/D fandom, partly, while still loving to write and having the old thrill with fanfic/fanart (when I do see it). It's not (just) fun anymore, I guess, and. So most likely I'm not really coming all the way back, am I.