~~ Ficlet: Love for the strong.

I'm not sure if I need an actual excuse for this or not (considering the so-called "break" I was talking about), but.... I was randomly catching up on my veelainc mailing list mail, and read this H/D fic.... Yeah. It's funny, because I wanted to write something in contrast to it, something about -love-, but instead... er... it got all turned around in my head.

I think "Dead Things" was one of the most traumatic episodes of 6th season for me. Gah. I think at that point it was glaringly obvious that they're in no way, shape or form good for each other, and even I couldn't pretend otherwise. God, it's just so awful, the way Spike would take anything from her, the way she fights herself and the way he's willing to hurt her in these subtle ways that are just as awful as the blatant way she's willing to hurt -him-. I always thought that Spike loved Buffy for her differences, and it's so sad, watching him clutching at her darkness, because that's never really been what he's wanted from her.

I found this site with wonderful reviews of Season 6 eps, and now I'm all "wah!!" even about the ones I'd sort of wished never existed. My god. Maybe it's just easier to love Season 6 in retrospect, I dunno. What I do know is that it blows me away, now.

The two of them just break my heart, and I think I wrote this H/D fic kind of about Buffy and Spike, because I can't write about -them-, and everything is a metaphor to me anyway. *sigh* Isn't it funny that I just wrote an H/D angst fic and all I can think about is still Buffy and Spike? Hah. Anyway... um... not beta'd or anything. Mostly just my state of mind right about now, if anyone's interested.

( `Love for the Strong' - H/D - R - You always hurt the ones you love. )