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Mike Krahulik draws the perfect boys.

This and this are like... my idea of the ideal protagonist. Saying this proves, without a shadow of a doubt, that I'm a 13 year-old boy stuck in a 25-year-old girl's body.

Still. He's so angry and violent and full of powerful motion & emotion & YEAH. I remember being 12 and thinking attitude & packaging was everything (though I wasn't conscious of it at the time). I never had either the right packaging -or- attitude, but I knew it when I saw it. The boys that live in my head are slim and lithe and angry, so angry at the world and so full of potential destructive/creative power. Sheer animus at work-- the spark of sex and violence. Yes.

I was full of angst today, angst and woe because I procrastinate so much and I'm such a wuss, really. I think a part of me doesn't quite understand a will to power that doesn't have anger attached-- not old simmering anger, that is, I mean raw 15 year-old rage. And then you grow up and it's all ugly and ingrained and accepted as reality, while when you're a teenager, your anger is everything and the world is going to go down burning with you. I miss that.

Omg, this is embarrassing. Retro-adolescent power fantasies, here I come.