~~ filthy wrong H/D smut, man. that's what I do -every- day.

Ahahaha!! fandombitches friended me!! EUREKA!!

I am a BNF who writes gross and disgusting stories!! YESSSS!! PH34R M3!!!11!! I will eat ur childrrrreennnnnn. Rrrrrun awaaaayyyyy. No, farther. Farther! BITCH!!

I'm sorry, I was attempting to exorcise the bitch inside. It is not working. She has dug in her pink little claws and she is saying, "Fuck you, write me filthy wrong H/D smut."

And lo, I have!! (With a little help from my friends.)

This goes out to you, fandombitches. I actually wasn't going to post this story. I wrote it last night at Sara's request, and I'm kind of sick to my stomach about it, and it disturbs me. I dislike -writing- rape & non-con & anger & pain and things, because those things hurt to imagine too vividly.

They're not sparkly or fun or sexy when you actually have to immerse yourself in them to write, but that doesn't mean they're not good and worthwhile things to write about, because if we just wrote about the pretty, we would allow ourselves to forget that the world isn't like that. So yes. I'm pretty disturbed by this story and by myself, when writing it. But then, I'm not 13, and I imagine I wouldn't have wanted to read this then... though I wrote my first rape-fic when I was 15, and was disturbed then too. But something about the subject wouldn't let go, I guess. It's a demon, and even when I think I can ignore it, it doesn't ignore me, so.

( Fic - `As Good As He Got' - NC-17 - H/D - Non-con, Rape, Violence, disturbing subject matter. Discretion advised. )