~~ why i write slash, queer theory, writing theory, stupid meta, etc.

reading acadine's post on why she writes slash was rather liberating. i'd never actually come up with a single reason, or a very good reason, for why i do. i mean, it must seem like an obvious sort of question for non-slashers to ask... i mean, it wouldn't occur to them, and so on. but to me it's just purely, 100% natural. as soon as i found my pairing, off i went. writing fanfic at -all- is much more difficult and problematic because of the need to find someone else's voice, the need to imitate (i'm not so good at it in any creative medium) to some degree. but slash? totally natural. mmm, queerness. what? queer = hot. everyone knows that, right? well, no, okay, that is just silly, but anyway.

so reading,
that just maybe the reason these straight women like the idea of slash so much is that, really, they'd kind of like to have a dick and be able to fuck people with it and get blowjobs.
totally made me squee, because it's true, i don't see people admit that. sure, people admit two-cocks-are-better-than-one, sure-- but wanting one? how pathetic can you get, right?

( so this is about owning your writing, huh.... )

what i'm saying is, this isn't only about the writing process-- i think the reading process is -inherent- and a vital ingredient of the writing process. i write and it's -me-, but you read and it's -you-, you see? and i write -because-....
( and so a list is born. )

and of course, acadine says this:
And what I think about good writing, any writing worth doing, is this: it needs no excuses.
very true. i think that's basically what -i've- been saying, but i got carried away with lists-- sometimes i do that. lists are fun, no?
    i am still wary, though, because in a way, "owning" your writing is just another excuse or explanation, in a way. it's too multifaceted and different for every writer to pin down to a generalization of any sort. i think why we write is true for us, whatever the reason is, so acadine's anger with a contradictory stance to hers seems... well... unjustified.

i agree with lasultrix in that both acadine and ivyblossom have valid points, but the truth is, we are all a little bit of that, a little bit of this, and the balance and amount of either or any ingredient depends wholly on the person. it needs no excuse to say we're all different, as writers and as people, correct? so i'm sure that there are nearly as many reasons why someone writes slash as there are slash writers. i myself am particularly egalitarian i suppose, but then, i'm a contradictory not-very-organized person who changes facets of her personality from day to day and hour to hour, kind of. i don't know if you can -tell-, here, 'cause i basically talk about hp all the time, but i'm rather random. so yeah. who was i, again, and why did i write -anything-, ever? i DON'T KNOW :D

( so, a multiplicity of reasons, which somehow manages to imply a multiplicity of self. wah. i kill myself with the double-triple-quadruple meta, i do. )

so yeah, i like to write/read about personalities without genders, except from a less... um... theoretically based angle. i realize some people think it's denial or whatever (am i escaping from my icky female body?) but i don't think so. gender-roles are just that. roles. people transcend roles even if they try to fit them. er. and if they don't, they may be realistic but they're boring. even so, doesn't mean i write because i want to write role-transcending super-real!boys or something. no, i love certain types of chemistry and i love cock (will i ever get tired of saying that? no. say it again, say it out loud, say it proud, it's fun: i love cock!!... though the truth is, i have loved boys and how they are with each other homosocially, platonically, for a longer time and probably for deeper reasons, but essentially i like both-- boy & cock, what can i say? they're-- uh... linked.) and i love to write most of all, for a zillion reasons. it's just that simple, man, even though it's never really "simple", it's true, for me anyway. because i said so. (and yes, i know i went on and on about it. i wrote this around 4am. why are you -reading- it??)