~~ writing & recs & process & stuff.

( EDIT - why can i not rec things in one paragraph or less? why god, why? *cuts and hides* )

    the fact remains, i haven't been -into- fanfic as much since book 5, so that's why i haven't read as much. i still love everyone's writing, it's just... i needed that space for the canon to settle. it still hasn't fully settled. plus, i want specific things-- mostly harry-centric canonish-type things. people jump on newness, but it's not like that. i'm not interested in the new and shiny, exactly-- i mean, tonks does nothing for me-- in canon, i barely noticed her. i did wonder what "wotcher" meant, exactly, but that's all. the desire to write femmeslash just because i -can- is far from foremost on my mind. ginny is okaaay, but i liked her more when it was easier to make her psychotic. hee. i miss sirius, but i never liked present-day s/r anyway. i think... almost... i want to read -gen-. almost. gen about harry.
    what's more, i want to -write- gen. i started this harry-and-luna piece (though it's stuck). i am still a rabid shipper... but i need time before i figure out how to deal with draco now. and i want draco in the (gen) stories, too. presently, my perfect fic would be circling around harry as the protagonist, remus and snape as the mentors, draco as the stray slytherin, ron & hermione as harry's sanity, luna as harry's sounding board about the feelings that he won't admit to to his friends (draco is no good for that-- we keep draco for the perspective-- and the sex, hopefully) and dumbledore as... dumbledore. hee. yes. dumbledore. *laughs*
    here's where `angel dark, demon bright' comes in. though i don't know if it -is- gen, it's close enough for now.

so yes. there were quite a few characters, and usually that turns me off because it dilutes the intensity of me being drawn into the story. but in this case i was just happy 'cause their voices were all different and it's fun to watch them interact. i dunno, often enough it feels like though there are a number of different characters, they're really all the same person except with different views on the same subject. maybe sometimes if you go at something from several different angles, no one character has to bear the brunt of authenticity, and you can kind of weave things together without putting too much weight on any one element. i don't see that work very often, but it's kind of fun when it does.

i feel so exposed, talking about specific fics, like it's been so long that it feels awkward, like i'm pimping or something, whereas i'm just rambling on about the most recent thing i'd read, which comes naturally. authenticity of voice is probably the most exciting thing i could find in a fic-- and it's not the same thing as being "in character", 'cause that involves action and general characterization issues, not just the dialogue itself, the ways characters differentiate themselves within the flow of their interactions. if i can be convinced by contrast that this is -draco- and this is -snape-, i'm happy. so yes.
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and, and!!
it's glockgal's birthday! *hug*!
~~Happy Birthday~!!..!..!..!!~~
i am so tempted to draw something but... but... considering you are so much more masterful than me, i am too embarrassed. *laughs* but! if you ask for something in particular, you shall receive! even though it be sucky!! hee. because, well, you are so my h/d art goddess and in my lowly worship i commit acts of frightening embarrassment >:D< *hug* <3~!
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( and. writing survey thingie gacked from rhoddlet & amalin. meep. 'slong. v. long. )