~~why does he kiss him.
Jan. 9th, 2003 09:25 pmthis is really stupid. just, really stupid. i can't believe i'm even having this much of a reaction, but....
sometimes i just read something and it just absolutely, positively, knocks me flat, and i start crying as if just knowing this is too much for me. it's not that i'm sad, it's not that i'm touched, it's that i'm just hit with the sense of truth and there's just something frightening and devastating about seeing things in that clear light sometimes, even if just for a moment. it's like getting the wind knocked out of you, like teetering on the edge of a great abyss. like seeing a dead man's eye open.
i was kind of having fun seeing the sort of inane things that pop up when you search google for "he kissed him". mostly, there is this picture of a papa rabbit kissing a baby rabbit, a bunch of random slash, jesus kissing children or whatever, and the story of esau and jacob, which i was resisting looking at, but finally gave in, here, because it seemed to have an explanation as to why it's unusual that esau kissed jacob (his brother) when jacob returned. esau hates jacob.
and so the question gets asked -why- esau hates jacob and why, then, does evil exist, consequently.
according to the kaballah, evil is a stronger force than good, more passionate anyway. evil gets done with more -force-, more conviction, more driving energy it seems. and so, the kaballah says, evil exists to be to be "exploited by goodness". if you can -harness- that power, ultimately you can have a more intense source of good. and then:
The soul of Esau knows this--that he exists solely to serve his younger brother. That no matter how ferociously he resists this truth, that ferociousness itself will ultimately be Jacob's.
That's why Esau hates Jacob so much: because he knows that his hate is not his own.
that is what really gripped me. i mean, you draw the obvious parallel (though you don't have to, i couldn't help myself, naturally). why does draco hate harry? because he knows that his hate is not his own. because he exists solely to serve harry. because no matter how ferociously he resists this truth, that ferociousness itself will ultimately be harry's.
there's just something about that that knocks me out completely.
i can't even begin to cover a fraction of the ramifications of this concept in all sorts of circumstances. but i'm sure most of you can understand even without me going on about it. the idea that evil is ultimately a sort of hidden power-source and secret of strength for good is intensely compelling to me. something about it makes a very unique sort of sense. sort of a shadow-sense. we draw our strength from our Shadow, in the jungian sense, this is something i would usually agree with. perhaps... perhaps all the cast off, frustrated, the products of resistance and rage and bottled-up fear-- perhaps they are really energy. perhaps love is simply the release of that energy. in a way, that's a frightening thought.
sometimes i just read something and it just absolutely, positively, knocks me flat, and i start crying as if just knowing this is too much for me. it's not that i'm sad, it's not that i'm touched, it's that i'm just hit with the sense of truth and there's just something frightening and devastating about seeing things in that clear light sometimes, even if just for a moment. it's like getting the wind knocked out of you, like teetering on the edge of a great abyss. like seeing a dead man's eye open.
i was kind of having fun seeing the sort of inane things that pop up when you search google for "he kissed him". mostly, there is this picture of a papa rabbit kissing a baby rabbit, a bunch of random slash, jesus kissing children or whatever, and the story of esau and jacob, which i was resisting looking at, but finally gave in, here, because it seemed to have an explanation as to why it's unusual that esau kissed jacob (his brother) when jacob returned. esau hates jacob.
and so the question gets asked -why- esau hates jacob and why, then, does evil exist, consequently.
according to the kaballah, evil is a stronger force than good, more passionate anyway. evil gets done with more -force-, more conviction, more driving energy it seems. and so, the kaballah says, evil exists to be to be "exploited by goodness". if you can -harness- that power, ultimately you can have a more intense source of good. and then:
The soul of Esau knows this--that he exists solely to serve his younger brother. That no matter how ferociously he resists this truth, that ferociousness itself will ultimately be Jacob's.
That's why Esau hates Jacob so much: because he knows that his hate is not his own.
that is what really gripped me. i mean, you draw the obvious parallel (though you don't have to, i couldn't help myself, naturally). why does draco hate harry? because he knows that his hate is not his own. because he exists solely to serve harry. because no matter how ferociously he resists this truth, that ferociousness itself will ultimately be harry's.
there's just something about that that knocks me out completely.
i can't even begin to cover a fraction of the ramifications of this concept in all sorts of circumstances. but i'm sure most of you can understand even without me going on about it. the idea that evil is ultimately a sort of hidden power-source and secret of strength for good is intensely compelling to me. something about it makes a very unique sort of sense. sort of a shadow-sense. we draw our strength from our Shadow, in the jungian sense, this is something i would usually agree with. perhaps... perhaps all the cast off, frustrated, the products of resistance and rage and bottled-up fear-- perhaps they are really energy. perhaps love is simply the release of that energy. in a way, that's a frightening thought.
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