~blarg.

my fidgetyness knows no bounds. i hate it when this happens. my mind refuses to be useful. i want to do a million things at once and end up doing none of them. can't concentrate and wish i could run around in little circles until i combust. on the bright side, it could be just the sense of not having done a lot of things i've been putting off and all of them are gnawing at my brain like crazed chipmunks.

i drew blaise for ishuca but didn't actually review the chapter. and i don't actually much like blaise. and i don't actually want anything to read or think about except fluffy nakedness and weirdness and dudley turned into a pig. and a lot of screaming. scream, dudley, scream!

do any of you know this feeling?
yes.
last night i was all relaxed and lost in comparisons between ali's h/d picture and the kiss in `song of the wind and trees' it reminded me of. *sigh* that was pure perfection. my favorite anime kiss, nothing even comes close. just, the way serge just -melts- at the first hint of being kissed. right beforehand, all normal and concerned and then, poof! melty and moaning and sinking to the floor, and grasping at the bed and so on. i was wondering if anyone had a favorite kiss that was just -perfect- (between two boys, but i guess it doesn't matter), to recommend.

complete surrender. not just -eventual- but -immediate-, and not in a slutty way, but in a "this is so strong, all my defenses melt in two seconds" sort of way. i don't know, there is just something about that. i wish more intensely emotional movies/anime got made. where the characters had these-- moments, that occur a lot in good fiction, because you make them happen in your head. but in a movie you have to be given more, with the voice and the exact visuals... *sigh* i can go on about this. but i won't.