~~writer loff aka, i *heart* wackt!harry

``No wonder Ron didn't like Malfoy, Harry thought, Malfoy looked like a freaky albino spider."

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*dies*
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*goes back to reading the ficlet anyway.*
yes, this is why i loff this fandom. indeed. nowhere else...! i'm telling you...!

gack..! mandibles...!
why. why oh why do i find mandibles and fish-oil hair and albino spider-fingers and... and... ferret teeth so bloody ADORABLE??!

harry's got it bad. oh harry, you need to ease up on this obsessive behavior :D yes. this is h/d as it should be. harry yearns for draco's sharp teeth. *laughs and laughs* ztrin is my hero. and then she writes this as a follow-up. Chihuahua!Draco. i do believe this rocks my itty-bitty malfoy-sized sox, hardcore.

EDIT: um. is that wrong? (just occurred to me.) i mean... shouldn't i worship at the feet of actual Great Writers who write Amazing (Published) Masterpieces? even neil-- i mean, he's mostly well-known for comics. it's not a far jump from comics to amateur to [amateur] fanfic, in some circles. i mean... there are plenty of writers that amaze me, well-known, published ones-- i don't squee over them as much. i read `perseid' by john barth, say. and i just went... mmmm. no need to squee. just feel buzzy and... more open to the universe. i mean... is there some sort of distinction? a disclaimer? "btw, i consider you guys my equals or thereabouts, so this mutual admiration society excess seems perfectly natural". i don't feel the need to be "adult" about other fanfic writers. hmm. will some of you-- one of you-- any of you... go on to become the next john barth? how would i feel, then? i don't know, actually....
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P.S. ~~i saw the second trailer & i'm in squee heaven. harry's voice and harry's broom, and i *heart* everyone, not just draco, i mean, EVERYONE, professors and owls and blue creatures and....

i'm a completely deranged fangirl. sitting here ``working" in ze 'puter lab, and i'm giggling & squeeing like a maniac, bouncing in my seat, my hand to my mouth so i don't drool or squee too loud. oh. gahd. Harry..! his voice...! and. and. he's... ....*trails off, before she gets too disgusting*

~~rambles & a semi-meta fandom question

so um... i was considering linking to my r/hr fic... on the fiction alley r/hr `ship thread. and. i can't. i can't. *runs from the hetness*

waaah. i can't. they were like... talking 'bout... ron and hermione... and... and... sex. (*cries*) i'm a ninny. i can't haaaaaandle iiiiiit. i wonder why. i don't know, really. i read ethrosdemon's h/r/hr almost-smutlet ('cause it had no warning, heh), and that was ok. almost... hot. sort of. i mean. i was a bit disturbed, because i was a) sort of liking h/hr(!!) het-sex; b) what the hell?? of course i like it, i'm not exactly slashing-since-birth or anything. so. but.... in my mind. ron and hermione are.... um. well. semi-platonic. *laughs* that's how i deal with it. i just don't want to... go there. kissing is ok. hand-holding. etc. but.... i mean.... *mind rebels once again* ok nevermind. just let me forget i ever wrote that fic...
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::happy sigh:: found this gallery of angel statue images. am blissful. am in awe. i mean... the sheer amount of work and effort required... to have such completely photo-realistic detail in stone. humanity is redeemed all over again every time another artist touches a pen, or a paintbrush, or an instrument, and creates. i fully believe that. forget sainthood. this is the Work. this is the true, the only Work.
    want to run away someplace like this and never come back. stone angels and water and old houses and peace. and me, by an attic window, pen in one hand, paintbrush in my pocket, watching the sun go down, slowly, over the edge of the river.
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( fannish-question-no-one-ever-answers time: )

~~joining the teeny-tiny-ficlet craze

this is just for fun, actually. just wrote it. don't expect roses or responses or anything, but i've just realized that i may as well -post- these stupid things i write, just like everyone else, because i've actually got like, five times the amount of fic i've posted, just sitting on my 'puter, 'cause it's not finished and may never be. so.
i don't care anyway. my last feedback 'bout the het story was, ``i likes. great job!" *cries*
i hate life. and.... really disappointing reviews. i feel like a 2nd-year elementary school student, with a gold star. here i am, lusting after these babies, and... and.... i mean... it'd be funnier if they said, "A plus!!!!!! U rite gud!!!!!!! Wow, you speak Ingliscsch languije nice!!!!" that would at least amuse me.

here's ( in place~~ a work in progress. or not. h/d, what else. )