...even though...

it was always obvious...
it always surprises me....
what a silly girl i am!
can anyone be a bigger t00b?? ack.

[this is what happens when i shoot off my mouth before my mouth remembers it's really not a good weapon. after all, it keeps shooting me in the foot!]

maybe i should start speaking only in japanese-- around non-japanese-speakers. yeah.
Jibun de katte ni susunde
Shite iru koto dakara
Nanni mo iwanai
Damatte damatte daite
Kagami no nai sekai de
Kagami no nai sekai de

no, i don't think i'll ever really get used to this whole `using words' thing. or this whole `being uber-painfully self-conscious' thing. (and plush!harry is really quite freaky isn't he....). i'm that variety of writer, i think, that does it because talking really doesn't seem to work. as far as not being embarrassing and being expressive. i just can't be self-conscious in the middle of storytelling. maybe i'm on to something..... i think it's going to go something like, "Harry was having a very tedious day...."

P.S. er. i would just like to take this opportunity to warmly congratulate my subconscious. yes, it's happened! i had a (*ahem*) slashy dream! yeay! *dances* well it was kinda h/d, even! one of them was hurt, and had to wash off all that blood.... and the other was just going to "help" him.... hee. oh, sometimes i love myself *grins*

i guess it was bound to happen, living and breathing slash for months now, but still! still! hee. and then i got a dream-package in my dream-mail, from some long-lost relative-- it was golden-snitches chocolates! said something about them being bitter-sweet and tingly :) yes well, i think i'll go out and try to get a life, now ;p

P.P.S. ...i need more spike! (*chants*) spike!spike!spike!spike!spike!spike! yeah! mmm i think i feel my het-fingers itching, oh yes... fall is coming.... spike is falling baby, he's going, down, down, down. oh yeah.

( yes, these quizzes can be somewhat disturbing... ahem. )

~~and just when you thought hp fandom's grown stale... *smirk*

omg~! *laughs hysterically* antihpslash is the funniest thing i've seen in ages.... oh...god... ooo i'm getting the tingles :> aww, this is great. tears of joy and laughter are coming to my eyes ;p
     er now, that wasn't sarcasm, why do you ask? it's just... oh god... the people sounding so stupid. it's so yummie and hilarious! i mean ok, on another day it'd piss me off...but now i'm just going, ``my gahd, that's funny shite". er. yeah.

    this entry by marvolo is possibly even funnier (but possibly less evil, heheheh).

( alright, if anyone cares, here's me ranting on about the virtues of slash/fanfic/etc, because i do, actually, care :P )

hee~!:)
Harry Hates Draco: A Love Story
draco: oooh baby, gimme more, gimme more of that ...hatin'... yeah...
harry: you sick twisted... arrrrgh!
draco: oo, you know you like it! *evil grin*
harry: aaack, get away from meeee!
draco: *aside* this is kind of fun, isn't it?
harry: *sigh of relief* so you're just...er... teasing me, then?
draco: muwahahahaha~! you will never know, Potter!
harry: you're evil, evil damn you..!
draco: yeah. whatcha gonna do 'bout it, big boy?
harry: *levels Wand of Doom* didn't think i was gonna do it, didya, didya??
draco: let's see them. your mad Skillz. lay it on me. *smirks*
harry: *zaps draco flat*
harry: damn. i didn't even fuck 'im first. oh well. *dusts off hands*
harry: sooo, hermione, what's for dinner? *pause* wanna shag?

~~the end~~
awww. i'm all heart ;p because, ``HP is meant to be magical & special." *pauses* awwwwww..... ;P was that not special, i ask you?? it was plenty special...! (*evil laugh*) ....i just can't quit can i :>

P.P.S. btw... it's funny... i used to go for months without much in the storytelling dept... and now it's like, two days and i haven't made much progress in my "epic" (*snerk*), and i'm like, i suuuuuuucckkk, heh. funny. am i a writer now? *laughs* my story is bitching at me (`why aren't you writing me, you biatch? do you think i've got all day?? what's with you?? aaaaack'). er. yah.