heee. *showers you with affection* <3! i sometimes wanted you to friend me here just so everyone knows amalin likes me, back when one could see my friends-of list (wheeee! i'm five years old!!) heh... but dude, i totally see the flist as stuff one wants to -read-, not a reflection of who your friends are~:)) i totally don't friend some people here 'cause while i ♥ them, i just don't have time to keep up with real-life rambles or not-my-fandom rambles or not-my-pairing rambles, even. i cut & cut & cut 'cause lj is an evil time-suck. heh~:))
for some reason i'm more hurt if people only want to friend me -here- and i thought they liked me, because this is all just rambly & boring, ahahahah. i mean. after a year, it even bores -me- o_0
what i wish is that i could just have -one-, and i -could-, but. it'd be too unbalanced and unfair to whoever just wants one or the other. plus i have this jadedness 'cause no one usually replies to non-fandom stuff on here. and it'd be okay if only i didn't feel like they were purposefully saying "well, we don't care about this". which is silly. but yes. this wasn't really a cry for anyone to friend me ><;; more thinking about journalling in general and how my relationship with it has changed. and stuff.
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timeasmymeasure
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Date: 2003-10-19 10:02 am (UTC)<3!
i sometimes wanted you to friend me here just so everyone knows amalin likes me, back when one could see my friends-of list (wheeee! i'm five years old!!) heh... but dude, i totally see the flist as stuff one wants to -read-, not a reflection of who your friends are~:))
i totally don't friend some people here 'cause while i ♥ them, i just don't have time to keep up with real-life rambles or not-my-fandom rambles or not-my-pairing rambles, even. i cut & cut & cut 'cause lj is an evil time-suck. heh~:))
for some reason i'm more hurt if people only want to friend me -here- and i thought they liked me, because this is all just rambly & boring, ahahahah. i mean. after a year, it even bores -me- o_0
what i wish is that i could just have -one-, and i -could-, but. it'd be too unbalanced and unfair to whoever just wants one or the other. plus i have this jadedness 'cause no one usually replies to non-fandom stuff on here. and it'd be okay if only i didn't feel like they were purposefully saying "well, we don't care about this". which is silly. but yes.
this wasn't really a cry for anyone to friend me ><;;
more thinking about journalling in general and how my relationship with it has changed. and stuff.
<333